i know it's not friday but....

My husband is awesome!!

the bathroom is finished.
the house is clean.
the christmas decorations will be put away tomorrow.
the new house decorations are hung up.
i got a foot rub when i got home from work.

He has been so incredibly supportive and understanding of everything lately. When I am tired, he tells me to go to sleep. When I am hungry, he makes me something to eat. When my feet are fat and swollen he doesn't care if I just sit on the couch all night. When I am frustrated with things that have nothing to do with him or us or anything at all, he lets me vent and gives me a kiss. When the baby kicks, he runs to my belly to feel too.

What more do I need in my life?

I love him.

Merry Christmas!!

I wanted to take a second to wish everyone a Merry Christmas!!

This year we have so much to celebrate and so many people to celebrate with - we are a truly blessed family and without Him none of what we have would be possible.

Enjoy your holidays, your families and the food!!!

update on the little one and the mommy

24wks here we come.....
So I had my appt today - it went fine. I have apparently gained more weight in a month than I should have, as the first thing he said was "I see you ate well over the holiday..." oops? I don't feel like I eat too much - but the baby is really loving oreo's and milk...every night... that could have a thing or 2 to do with it? So i should cut that out.. and probably the weekly (or biweekly) high calorie coffee drinks? He said overall he is not that worried but to just be careful. Ok doc, no christmas cookies for me I get it!

I am measuring perfectly he said. The little one was "slightly girl" today - as has been the case with all of our appts. (I am a bad mom and never remember to ask what exactly that heartrate is!). To this comment he got a swift kick in the hand - not sure if it was in agreement or disagreement but it was perfectly timed!

He said I look pregnant too... is that a compliment? I thought I have "looked" pregnant for at least 10wks now! You be the judge....

I would also like to draw your attention to the bellybutton.... it expanded quickly and now is rebelling against the karate chops that can be felt for most of the day.

I have this other problem... swollen feet... very swollen feet. Since my b/p was high today I figured I should mention this to him. (not worried about the b/p, there was an ice storm last night and I get very nervous when I have to drive on shitty roads) He said it will get worse before it gets better and to "get horizontal" as much as I can.... ok I will have to tell my boss I must lie down at work?!

these lovely ankles are the product of wearing heels to work... I know they don't look THAT bad, but you should have seen them as soon as I got home - my maleoli (or ankle bones) were completly hidden by puffy pregnant cankles! and my toes look like unpainted sausages..... stay tuned for more exciting pictures such as these in the weeks to come :)

Overall, i'm great, baby's great. nxt up - christmas and then my glucose test.

my husband rocks

He totally does. as usual.

we are pseudo-homeowners as you well know, but we have real homeowner repairs and issues to deal with. our masterbathroom toilet overflowed this weekend and he took it like a champ, cleaning, repairing, etc. In the not so distant past he would have pitched a fit over such things - my how far he has come :) I am proud of him - he takes great care of us.

He is also very excited for school to start next month and I am very excited for him because I know how long he has been looking for this. We will make it all work beautifully in the meantime right?!!

Looking forward to another week of amazement and happiness........ and maybe a fresh new bathroom!

Chin Up

you know, kind of like glass half full?

I promised to post about this last week and got busy/forgot. The husband got some motivation and decided on something that may be great for him. He is going to be starting at a school for broadcasting in our area - it's accredited in the field and is a 10month program with high job placement. Everything will get finalized tomorrow for him to start in either jan. or feb. and I know that he is really excited about it. I am very proud of him because I know he is going to do great, that it is something he loves to do.

I also mailed in my application for the masters program I hope to get accepted into for next year. It's something I have wanted to do for a long time and whether or not I go back to medical school it is something that I want to do. March I will find out for sure if I got in.

A few other things that have made me really nervous lately are working themselves out in a way, which is nice.

The little one is practicing gymnastics in my uterus as of late - it's a really strange feeling! One thing that I have started to notice is my belly button.... first it got really flat.... now it is starting to poke out a little bit, but only on one side. I hope it goes back to it's cute little self when the expansion is over! Mike is getting even more excited about becoming a dad and that in itself is a pretty amazing feeling. As much as I worry about all kinds of things - as my mom told me today - we will fake it until we figure it out! (but I think we have some good role models, so I am not that worried!)

Attempting to keep the chin up as much as possible these days.
besides, it helps disquise the "pregnancy" double chin I am sporting.....

christmas past, present and future

I was catching up via my googlereader this am and saw a great post by Amy.

My favorite christmas traditions from when I was little:

-- going to my great aunt mary's on xmas eve for all the traditional italian food and family

-- getting our stocking "bags"

-- christmas morning breakfast = cinammon rolls, (recently french toast casserole) egg nog, oj

-- taking turns to open presents & show off each one (we have continued this even though most of us are grown up and out of hte house, we always go to my mom's for christmas morning!)

-- playing the christmas light game while driving around

-- cookies! - and now chocolate covered goodies.

-- leaving cookies and milk for santa with a carrot for the reindeer

-- going to see the christmas tree display after thanksgiving every year

i am sure there are more, but it's early!

Traditions I want to start with our little one: (and some that we do already!)

-- family pictures each year on christmas (and before for the cards!)

-- opening one present on christmas eve

-- reading a christmas book on christmas eve before bed

-- watching the classic xmas movies (this one is for daddy!)

-- continuing the christmas morning breakfast!

-- seeing santa

-- mailing/receiving letters from santa (you know, when they are older!)

-- having christmas at our house

i'll have to see what Mike wants to do too -- he loves the holidays!

(little one, you certainly have a lot to look forward to next year!)

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and today is a very special day. it's my mom's birthday!!!

we got her something fabulous and I can't wait until she sees it. It has been another very wonderful year for her and she continues to give me a lot to live up to in the mom department.

how i am feeling and how my day is going (and subsequently how i look).

I have a cold.
it won't go away.
it's make me cranky and irritable (ok more so than I was before).
I feel bad for the people I work with - they probably think I am effin crazy. Literally I started crying because someone gave me attitude back about something - not in front of them, but close. Can you say sick, hormonal pregnant lady on the loose? I bet there are a few ppl in this office that can.....
ugh. I should totally just go home like everyone keeps telling me too - but alas, I am also a stubborn, sick, hormonal, pregnant lady.

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on a side note - I am very proud of my husband. More on that tomorrow......

click click boom

I know i have been bitching a lot lately about how busy/crazy/stressful life has been lately - and it is in fact all of those things. I have been a very big crab lately - pretty much bitching at anyone who looks at me wrong because why the hell would you look at me like that? My tolerance for things that I don't feel like doing/hearing/seeing etc. is pretty much non existant and I fully realize this. i am sorry for being a hormonal, crazy bitch most of the time - but honest to goodness I don't even realize I do it until after the fact.

So all that being said - I need to stop freaking out about things that I can't control at this moment or my head is going to explode.

Example - omgwhatif: the house sells and we have no where to live b/c I am off work, my boss suddenly decides he hates me and fires me, i have to go on bedrest, we don't order the baby's furniture in time, my friends won't want to hang out with me once the baby is born, we won't be able to afford for anyone but the bag lady to care for our child during the day, my cankles blow up so big i can't put my shoes on..... ya you get it huh?

Half legit but half just absolutly insane!

i know that everything will work out perfectly in the end - whatever definition of perfect we choose to live in. I just have to get my ass in gear with my ten mile long to-do-list and maybe that will take my mind off of all the what-ifs that continually poor through my mind.

The only thing that makes me feel better is the kicks that I can feel from this little one (until of course I think about how this little one is going to get out my warm uterus and ohmygodiwillbe responsible.....)

my husband rocks

i think i missed last week - sorry!

Things (as you know) have been rough lately - but he does still manage to rock on a few occasions. He took care of a bunch of stuff for me this week which was nice.

He also still thinks I look beautiful and makes sure to tell me that every single day - that is a very big help and a very big deal to me! He told me that he loves me more now than the day we got married - I about burst into tears because I thought that was so sweet!!

Even though things are hard right now - we are still going strong.

scared?

There is a LOT going on right now. baby. work. studying. life. you name it - it's happening at the same time. typical.

We just had our saturn in the shop for a new effing transmission - thank god we were persistant and got the information to qualify for a warranty extension so saturn covered the cost - but my husband has been w/o his car for over a week. He will be FINALLY picking it up tomorrow. Without a car (or rather his suv) he can not work. Nice timing.

I have got to start studying - and I have. just not near the capacity that I need to be. I am sucking it up and talking with a learning specialist tomorrow after work about how to go about everything this time around while working full time and carrying a child. Should be interesting and I am looking forward to having a plan. I am nervous over this whole thing - but i KNOW that I have to do it - getting over my fear and nerves may take me longer than going over the material.....

Suddenly I am more scared about finances than I have been in a very long time. I was "offically" hired by my company today (was working through a temp service) which is good considering the economy is going down the shittter but it brought about a few things. 1) i am not getting a raise until after my maternity leave - um that blows. 2) my maternity leave is unpaid -as expected - but sucky regardless. it can also be as long as I want up to 3mo, but I can't afford to be off work at all let alone 3 months! we will discuss the specifics once it gets closer. 3) health insurance comes out of my pay (duh!) which I did not think about until now... and I need to figure out the best way to figure out the insurance situation which includes a lot of number crunching by the first of the year.

I have no idea what to do about daycare, daycare costs and all things related to this. I can't even wrap my head around it. If I go by a standard of $200/wk - it would be next to pointless for me to work (w/o a raise) but I can't NOT work... talk about a rock and a hard place.

We have to pay off our credit card, buy nursery furniture, start saving for when I am off work (hah!), figure in my student loan payments (which start in feb... go figure), plan for a few bridal showers & weddings & extra baby stuff, buy christmas presents..... overwhelmed much? why yes I am thanks for asking....

OOOHHH and the newest discoveries as far as body morphing to accomodate baby - my hands are swollen and I had to take my wedding rings off last week. (granted I have tiny hands, my rings are a size 4.5 and usually big) I hate not having them on. Last night - I discovered just how much my feet are swelling... I had elastic marks from ankle socks. awesome. cankles at 21wks....

ugh life.

can you hear me?

I asked the little one this the other day - and I got a swift kick in response, so I guess that is a yes!

Speaking of kicks - daddy got to feel his first kicks (or punches or whatever) on thanksgiving - he had the happiest, most precious look on his face. It is such a great feeling and I am so glad he gets to experience it with me now.

Speaking of hearing - I have always been really excited to read to the baby, both inside and out, and now that I know the little one can hear me (Even if I sound like a deep sea creature....) I get to start the reading.

I got this book from Amazon after both Jamie & Alicia recommended it. Dr. Suess is my FAVE children's author and the little one already has started their own collection - so this is even more perfect! It's adorable.

Thankful

I am thankful for a handsome, wonderful, supportive husband and a healthy, growing, amazing marriage.

I am thankful that I have these amazing women (and babies!) in my life to share everything, good or bad, now and for many more years. I am also thankful for all of the friends in our lives - new and old.

I am thankful for my "new" family and for the best father figure I could ask for. I am also thankful for my mom, for her health, happieness and support.

I am thankful for my sisters and the closeness, laughter and love that we share.

I am thankful for a healthy pregnancy, for the kicks I feel everyday, for the little one that is growing big and strong.

I am also thankful for all of things we can't see - intelligence, motivation, a positive outlook in the face of challenge, safety and happieness in the wonderful life that I have.

I hope everyone has a safe and happy Thanksgiving!

1/2 way to the beginning

20 wks and I will be a mom. shit!
Here is what I have learned so far

• gaining weight for a good cause, while slightly unnerving a times, hasn't been so bad. yet.
• i can pee in a cup like a pro
• the attention being pregnant gets you is surprising to me, but I like it more than I thought I would
• feeling kicks from the inside - also not as crazy feeling as i expected. I actually love it quite a lot
• I do not like when people mention what/how much/when I eat --- not at all.
• I never knew I was a firebreathing dragon. seriously - it keeps getting worse and i have eaten all the tums i can every.single.day!
• the power of feeling so connected to someone I have never met - this is by far the best part.
  

• My husband is going to be a great dad. He talks to the little one as much as I do and is (maybe) more excited than I to see him or her!

We had our u/s and 19w appt last week - baby looks great, very wiggly and very cute! Kept sucking his/her thumb and punching the u/s tech! doctor said I am a "perfect pregnant person" - so yay for being good at something! We will have to have a 2nd u/s in a few months to check the location of my placenta as it is pretty low right now - dr said it should be fine, but just to be safe we need to check again before the baby comes - I am not worried about it!

so - we are half way to the start of our new life as parents & I am incredibly INCREDIBLY anxiously excited to meet this little angel!

my husband rocks

he has been amazing the past few months - AH-MA-ZING!

i am not the best person at showing my appreciation, and i know that. i try to do little things to make him know how much i love him and thank him for what he does - but i know i suck at it most of the time, especially lately.
But everything he does is wonderful. and thoughtful. and yes i am being sappy but i don't care!
I know that he will take excellent care of me and his child, he already does.

So - thanks babe! I love you more everyday

are you ready

So, increasingly over the past weekish I have noticed more and more houses with their christmas lights up (and on!). I am NOT ready for the holidays - I can not even believe that thanksgiving is next week already!
While I am really excited for the holidays this year, I am just not mentally prepared for them I guess. With so many other things going on they just seem to be on the bottom of my priority list. I will get there eventually!

But on another note - what is your opinion on having your outside holiday decorations lit before thanksgiving? I do not agree with this practice! Thanksgiving to me symbolizes the start of the christmas season, so I get all wiggy about people being festive before then! How about you? When do you put up and turn on all of your decorations?!!

motivation

it has been a journey the past few months, between the school/life decisions that had to be made, the baby, starting this job and more. I don't regret any decsion that was made at all, as hard as some of them were/are. But something happened the other day - well probably over a course of days/wks - I started to feel like something is missing or like a puzzle piece isn't fitting right. It fnaally dawned on me what that piece is - medical school. It has been part of my life before I ever saw the inside of the building and it has been part of my future for longer. While I am still a little uncertain on the whole thing and being a doctor is still kind of big and scary to me in ways I can no explain, I think I owe myself a second change.
A chance to see if I can do it, if I can put all of the things I learned and all of the struggles I had/have into a productive "I told ya so". It is going to take a lot of work, a lot of will power and many many hours of studying - but I think I am finally ready to try it again - to take the test with less pressure and more of myself behind it. I would be lying if I told you I wasn't scared, nervous, freaked out! - but I think with some guidance on how to study and doing it one step at a time - I can at least give it a fair (second) chance.
I deserve it, my family deserves it and i think I probably owe it to myself. I plan to take the test before the baby is born - so March sometime. I know exactly how hard it is going to be b/w now and then - but I feel like I am mentally ready now, so here goes nothing......

18w4d

everyday a little bigger!

and i offically know what a flutter is :)

a few things i didn't know....

• your hair does in fact grow. and in different places than i expected - like my stomach. it freaks me out. Along with that - I am freaked out about getting my hair dyed - I want to, but what if it falls out!! I will probably do it anyone (sans bleach) and just pray it looks ok.
• your skin does change. as in, i have acne like a 12yr old boy, the moles and beauty marks i have already are changing (some of them) and my skin is even more dry than before. and it itches. alot. especially my belly.
• i am incredibly self conscious of my skin color - i have not been this pale, i don't know, in like 8yrs or something sick b/c i enjoy the fake'n'bakin. I have decided to go with the self tanner for now - not like I have a choice but I am vain. ((suggestions being taken....)
• i should have bought stock in tums - specifically the smoothie kind. I breathe fire almost all day long i kid you not. Without my tums I would probably have a fire extinguisher down my throat!
• I have in fact heard that heartburn and itchy stomaches "indicate" lots of hair on the baby - i must be having a freaking bear then! or an italian.
• My wardrobe literally shrinks everyday. I hate buying maternity clothes too - b/c they are not cute (some of them are of course, i buy those ones) and they are expensive! I want to spend my money on clothes to wear forever and ever not just a few months. ok i will quit whining about this now.
• I waited my whole life to be visited by the boob fairy... now that she has come, i'm not so sure how much i enjoy this!
• What is a "flutter"? This is something I do not know... do not know if I feel... and really frustrate myself trying to figure it out! I think this kid is going to have to karate kick me in the ribs before I know its moving around in there. soon enough......

limbo

So, we are finally all moved in. That is a nice feeling. A few things could make it nicer

• if we owned the house we live in now (maybe not this exact one, but one in general) - its not possible at the moment for a lot of reasons, but a family can dream.
• since we are renting said house - it is still currently for sale - which means that we have to vacate whenever someone wants to see it. twice in one week when noone has shown any interest in um, 2yrs? we understand and we agreed to this before we moved but it really doesn't make it suck any less.
• we have done a lot of work already to the kitchen (it's a wallpaper nightmare) and again, it is not "our" house. While it is really awesome to be able to give it our special touch - it's a lot of work! But it does show how dedicated my husband will be when it really is ours.
• I am nervous someone will want to all of a sudden buy it - like in march - before the baby is born and then what?!! [or april, right after the baby arrives....]
• We have and will probably only unpack about 1/2 of our stuff for fear of having to pack it all back up again quickly (and with much less of my help). I know that is not a good way to do things and I am sure as time passes that fear will settle - but its the unknown. I am not good with the unknown in any situation.

So yes, we do love where we live right now, we just don't love so much the uncertaintly of it all, but we are dealing with it just fine. I think anyone would feel the same way in the same situation.

Everyday it feels a little bit more like home, at least for now!

#2

so i realize this is a little bit backwards - but whatever.

Last weekend we went to a 'before baby fair' at hospital #2. We got plently of free stuff (bottles, bib, formula... a chair massage!) and got to take a tour - which is the main reason we went.

• L&D rooms - decently big, unlimited amount of guests until the pushing starts. Their policy is 2ppl at that time, but in reality it is up to you and your dr.
• PP rooms - almost all are private. (some do not have their own showers which is kinda sketchy.... but i think i will be able to manage) unlimited # of guests
• Dad gets a key card access to the ward which is nice
• Baby doesn't leave the nursery except for with mom or dad - i know that is typical procedure but always nice to hear.
• special care nursery available if needed (same as #1)

Many things were the same b/w the two hospitals but I think we made the best choice for us. And after this weeks experience - I now also know how nice the nurses are!

not a trip I would recommend

This has been a crazy week to say the least [more on that later] but it got really nuts on thursday.

It all started with a migraine at work that would.not.quit. I fought through it all day and headed home. No sooner did I get home and lay on the couch was I back up again - but this time into the bathroom to puke my guts out. This happened oh, 20 or more times from then until I finally fell asleep around 11. The headache only got worse the whole time. When I woke up on fri I planned on going to work (ya... i know) until I threw up.... again. Dehydrated much?!!

So - away we went to OB triage, drs (and my mom's!) orders.

I got lots of fluids, some good drugs and a nap.

I feel much better this morning, but I hope not to have to repeat this experience again! At least we know how to maneuver the hospital now for when it comes time for this baby!!

time to unpack

so clearly this week has been spent packing... and packing... and packing some more stuff that i had no idea we had. Followed by moving these things... then cleaning our apt that we moved out of.

Now I am sitting in a living room surrounded by boxes that contain things that need a home. I feel like crap - have been battling a cold or something equally sucky for the past week or so - so I have little energy to move stuff around. I'll get there soon enough.....

Today we are going to target.homedepot.and to a baby fair. should be fun.

Will be back to my regularly scheduled blogging soon enough - with pictures of the new place of course.

MHR

so, the end of another week and a pretty great one in terms of husbands.

With all the moving and repairing and whatnot going on he has been VERY helpful (despite my crazy moods on any given hour of any given day) and very willing to do whatever he needs.

Thank goodness one of us has the energy to do these things - goodness knows I am not anywhere near there (and a cold is creeping up on me, so that helps none). He just does what he knows needs done and I know it will all get done!

#1

we had our first hospital tour last night.

I can officially say I am overwhelmed by the idea of physically giving birth. It is one thing that I prefer to leave to the later months in pregnancy (or you know... when the time comes). Here are the specs.

• 3 ppl allowed in the birthing suite, 4 ppl allowed in the post partum rooms at a time
• birthing rooms are very large and pretty "homey"
• everyone was really nice & accomodating
• dad can spend the night as long as you have a private pp room

those were the highlights for us. hospital #2 is next weekend to compare and then decide. I wasn't overly impressed or disappointed, both are good things!

big happenings

There are some things I just choose not to blog about sometimes - you know, like boring life stuff (you all know the exciting things) and things that would annoy a lot of people!

Well - in neglecting to tell you about some stuff, I left out one of the biggest decisions mike and I were trying to make right now - to move or not. We live in a pretty nice place, for low rent, but it would have been slightly cramped with the baby and our neighbors are beyond obnoxious. So we started to look at houses a little bit (to rent - not buy yet) and the family got word of this. My twin sister came up with an idea and pitched it to my mom - us renting out my grandparents home since it hasn't been even close to selling in over 2 yrs. What a solution to everyone's problems!

We knew the house was nice (3br, 2bath, big living area, even bigger basement, att. garage, 1st fl laundry, nice neighborhood) but hadn't been in there in a while. After taking a look around yesterday we have plenty of work to do in updating - but it will be ours. My grandparent would love to have us there.

And we want to move by nov. 1........

Mike already left to start working on some things and I am sitting in a living room with a bunch of 1/2 packed boxes. Let the games begin!

my husband rocks

because he is there for his family.
by family i mean me. this week he was there for me when i needed him
i also mean his parents/grandma. he is also there for them this week. what a good son/grandson he is.

because he is my rock - i love him even more.

it's my belly and.....

and i decide who touches it.

14w4d

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it has been a really sad week for both of our families. We each lost a sibling to a grandparent on monday. Mine was my great aunt - my grandma's sister - who passed away 10yrs to the day of my grandma who i adore more than anyone in this world [maybe even more than my mom, her daughter] , they were the same age when they passed away. Today we celebrated the life of Mike's great uncle - his grandfather's brother - who mike was also very fond of. It is always nice to see family, if only the circumstances could have been better. I have a hard time dealing with death in general, I don't like to talk about it much. Yesterday was especially hard for me, I miss my grandparents very very much, I cry when I think of them and how happy they would be for me, but I know they are going to help me/us in the years to follow & I know my grandma is happy to have her sister with her as well.

so back to the belly thing - with all the family and them finding out I am expecting - they had, clearly, no choice but to touch my stomach. a lot. It is ok for some people to do it - but otherwise no. I also did not enjoy my MIL pointing out my stomach this evening and referring to it as her grandchild. sure, there is a baby in there, but until it is outside of this stomach - I am still me and that is a part of my body that happens to be growing at a rapid pace.

So - moral of the story, it is now pretty obvious to everyone that I am with child, no need to make them feel stupid by pointing it out. And we miss our loved ones all day everyday.

why?

why is it that when people refer to a pregnant women they:

a) talk with their hands to indicate you are getting fatter & possibly going deaf &/or forgot the state of your body at the moment.
b) must reiterate to you just how much you are eating
c) ask, a lot, "how many babies are in there?" and say "are you sure?" when you reply 1.
d) act as if you can not do anything for yourself.... (ok, maybe this one isn't so bad sometmes!)

to answer all of these questions...

a) i know i am getting bigger, that there is a baby in there, and my hearing is fine.
b) i also know that I am hungry a lot - leave me alone!
c) yes, 1. that i know of. will get a definate answer for you thursday.
d) thanks for all the help, but sometimes i want to do it myself! (only sometimes though....)

fall

apple picking day

some of the awesome flowers planted at the orchardhappy fall!!
plz ignore my extra chin...

rockin' husbands friday!

so there is a very good reason that he rocks this week.

he let me sleep on his side of the bed.

might not seem like much - but i have been sleeping like complete shit lately and he thought that might help. it did. such a thoughtful, sweet man he is to give up his sleeping position.

why does your husband (or best friend or mom or whoever) rock this week?!!

never say never...

some reasons not to do this:

-- i swore i would not buy the baby gender specific clothes no matter how cute they are or how cheap. we bought the cutest pink polo dress on friday night for $3.

-- i said i could never ever be a SAHM. the thought has crossed my mind in the past few days, too bad our check book wouldn't agree with this statement.

-- i have probably never worn the same outfit twice in one month. that is becoming impossible these days - i don't like it.

-- i also said i would not wear any maternity pants with a full belly panel. there are a pair hanging in my closet right now that are actually comfortable and cute.

-- i promised myself never to touch my belly in public/when other people are watching. i do it without even noticing, then i silently yell at myself for it until it happens again.

-- never did i imagine my life to be what it is today. I am thankful for where I am right now and who I am - but when I think about it, it is surprising, even to me.

these are just a few of the things i said i would never do, i clearly lie to myself. I am sure few people care about such things as these, but apparently I care more than I thought.
One thing that I said I would do and have actually been doing is keeping a journal for our little one of all things that we wish/hope/dream for their life - and what is going on right now. I find myself getting excited to write in it sometimes! I tell the baby about our family and when they meet someone new as an inside person.

There is one meeting coming up that I am not sure I will want to tell him/her about. I mentioned a few months ago that my "grandma" who I haven't seen or heard from in 5-10 years wants to see us (me and my sisters). We have all had a hard time with this because what grandmother would not want to be involved in her granddaughters lives'? I honestly never imagined seeing them again - because what would be the point? well anyway, apparently she feels bad about everything now and has been repeatedly asking about when she can see us for a while now. We finally decided to just do it because well, whatever. I personally feel like it is more of a business meeting than anything else, I have already felt all of the emotions I can over this situation and have nothing left to feel/give towards it other than my presence. It will be interesting.
But then I think about my mom and mother in law. They would never in a million years think of doing such a thing to their (unborn) grandchild/ren. I can't imagine it. Being pregnant and going through this whole thing makes me think a lot differently. I would never put my baby in a situation where I felt they could get hurt in this unimaginable way - so when the question comes up at this 'meeting' like I know it will about them seeing our child - I am not sure how to answer. My instinct is to say no, you will not hurt my child like that. But I don't want to say never....

My Husband Rocks - one day late!

he rocks this week as usual. why this time you ask?

just because.

I don't have one specific thing that happened this week - it's the everyday things that he does for me and with me that are just awesome. We are each others best friend - I think that says enough right there.

hey there old friend

how is everyone today? good huh?! great news!!

i am actually feeling halfway decent today - must be the mexican i ate for dinner! The headaches so don't want to go away, but hey i can deal b/c i get to show this off:

now that my work knows (and my boss hugged me in congratulations) i feel so much better, and they all finally admit that they started to notice something changing. My clothes so do not fit - at least my pants, even hard to wear some of them with the bella band b/c they won't zip at all. embarrassing. and the shirts - just a little tight, kind of sausage looking at times.

The baby is getting really spoiled already - grandma and grandpa miller(!) bought the baby a bunch of stuff from the carribean while on the honeymoon. (including a cute dress... think they want a girl?!) And the aunts are buying such cute outfits already :)

And in other news

I have finally started to work on the (long) application process for the masters program i am going to start next fall. I will be really ready to learn by then i think. The option of finishing my MD is still on the table for the future - not the really near future, but maybe when i finish the masters. one step at a time i guess, see where my heart is after each one. So, that is the education news for now. currently trying to educate myself on all the crazy stuff that happens to your body during pregnancy and where to deliver said baby.

That is enough for now huh? I have a little vent to get out - but I will save it for later since I am in a good mood tonite!

presents

who doesn't love them?!! i mean honestly - even if they are over the internet kind of presents - still awesome!

so Erin left me a little gift over at her blog* -- so fun! you must read her stuff she's hilarious and making great strides to accomplish her goals.

so - 7 weird/strange things about me (be prepared!)

1) if there is a blanket around, i must cuddle with it. i will open the window to prevent overheating if i have to - but i must have the blanket wrapped around me!
2) laundry is the worst chore in the world. yet i will not let the husband do it for me - he doesn't do it right and then i get all pissy about it. so i am pissy when it comes time to clean the clothes and i am pissy if he helps - lose:lose!
3) the thought of eating jello skeeves me out. i hate that stuff (even with your choice of alcohol in it) and it makes me all pukey.
4) i can't lay in bed when i wake up - not for more than like 10minutes. i get all antsy and just have to start doing something, like brushing my teeth, immediatly!
5) i do not like watching the same movie twice. i mean if it's on tv and there is nothing else on, ok i'll do it. but i do not desire to see something when i already know what will happen at the end.
6) the sound of someone sniffling drives me NUTS! just blow your damn nose already. sheesh.
7) when i take a shower - the first thing i must do is wash my hair. every.time. even if i just showered that morning, it doesn't matter! once my hair gets even a tiny bit wet - game on!

annnd the people i think who should reveal some thing about themselves are:
Annegirrrl - The passing there
Jill - Maybe it's just me
Amy - amilou
jamie - 2+1 makes 3

AND my most bestest new blogger!!



*am too lazy to post that pretty picture here.... sorry!

My Husband Rocks

so this week, he has been a trouper. I have been grumpy and sleepy and hungry - usually together - and he just goes with it. I think sometimes he is more intune with this pregnancy than me b/c he always knows how to fix whatever is wrong with me!

we haven't seen much of each other the past few weeks - this one being no exception - but he we always talk at lunch and he always kisses me when he comes home and i am asleep! Also - when I forgot the 2 things I went to the grocery store for b/c I was too preoccupied with buying mac & cheese in every conceivable form - he laughed at me and went out and got what I forgot.

love you very much!

forgive me internet, i have been a bad blogger

i am so sorry for the lack of posting/updating on the excitment of my life. things have been CRAZY (and i have been beyond tired). I try to stay off the computer at night if mike is here since i hardly get to see him. he gets jealous of you!

So --- what is up with everyone? I need to check my reader before it explodes, but it too will have to wait b/c i am busy eating jojo's and getting psyched for gray's anatomy to come on.

My life has been busy and boring at the same time. I am working on getting the pictures from my mom's wedding edited so I can show some more off. Working on a lot of things for lacrosse this season - some changes, some boring stuff - just being a good coach's wife!
Ummm oh, work is good - busy, less boring - so that is a plus. I am going to get my "promotion" or whatever they are going to call it in a week or so, that is exciting! Still haven't told them about the baby yet - I was all psyched up to do it today and of course the boss wasn't in. I have "popped" as they say to the point that it is un-hidable! I don't mind of course, but it makes it hard to say "oh ya, that beer is really catching up to me" when it's pretty obvious no beer drinking has been going on!
When/if you had to tell your new boss about your pregnancy - how did you do it? I am so perplexed on this, I ask mike everynight what to do! Did you write it up somehow formally or just tell them? I fully intend on working until I can't anymore and being back in 6wks (ok I would like 8 but i know that won't fly!) so it's not like I am leaving forever. I would love some opinions on this one.

That is really all the excitment I can handle for one post - that and my jojo's are getting cold....

I promise to be better and tell you more exciting things next time - preview: the plans for school, moving?!!, pictures pictures and more pictures. stay tuned.....

Houston, we have a heartbeat!

We went to the Dr. yesterday - and he found our little one's hearbeat almost right away! As far as we know, there is only one in there - despite the speculation there may be two! It was just beating away as fast as could be - the dr. said according to the old wives tales it's a girl! - but really, who listens to those things!! Everything else looked good, great in fact is what he told us! We really need to make a decision on if we are going to have a midwife or dr. deliver for us - we are leaning toward dr. And we have to decide which hospital to deliver at, probably going to be scheduling tours here in the next few weeks so we know before our next appt. The main reason we want to figure it out now is that different sets of dr.'s in the practice I see deliever at different hospitals - so we want to get to know the people who could be there with us!

And - what everyone really cares about - the belly!

10w4d

My Husband Rocks x2

So with last week being so busy, I didn't get around to telling you all about why he rocks so much.

Last week, I had my first (and so far only) bought of actual morning sickness. on the way to work. in my car. ya - it freaking sucked. I had to come home and change and such - and while i was doing that, my husband cleaned my car for me! I mean really, I can't say I would do such things for him - but he didn't even hesitate. It was the greatest thing he did for me last week.

This week - it's just because. he is working hard, very involved in everything with the pregnancy, helpful in about a million ways, and really - mostly b/c he had dinner ready for me last night when I walked in the door!

I have missed you

It has been a very busy week.... I have been a bad blogger, am very sorry. This is what I have been up to (all pictures are unedited, stay tuned for more)

Happy Birthday to Aunt Sunday!

Being pampered...
She's getting married!
My favorite picture of Cori

All of us during the wedding [9.14.08]

Grandma & Grandpa renewing their vows after 50yrs
Me and my sisters

Me and my fabulous husband

Mom & Gordon's first dance

have pregnancy, will eat

today was grocery shopping day. let me back up by telling you that we really only "shop" about once a month or two and pick up little things in b/w. We always shop together - ya wierd i know!
So back to the story -- I am going up and down the aisles like usual, grabbing up every yummy thing I can find to eat b/c i was STARVING!! Hubs was laughing at me the whole trip, it was a pretty hilarious time. And you will be happy to know (mom & jacqui) that I got good food to eat and the baby will not starve - at least not this week!

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On a seperate note -- my mom's wedding is the weekend! It should be a great time as long as I can sit down in my dress - which is slightly tight in the waist.... but anywho! We are finishing up all the last minute stuff (you know, on top of real life stuff) and saturday is pamper-ourselves day - who doesn't love a mani/pedi?!! So if I am slightly MIA for the next few days you have been warned.

Anything exciting going on with any of my supurb readers? Tell me - I would love to know!

My Husband Rocks

so it's the end of another week, and that means a new reason why my husband rocks my world.

This week's topic: doing without saying

He is always willing to do things that need done, sometimes with more prompting than others, but he is usually willing to do whatever I ask of him - which can be a lot sometimes.

This week in particular he picked up a few things from the store that he knew I needed, he rubbed my back when he knew it was bothering me and he always gives me compliments without me fishing for them ;)

It's nice to have someone who knows what you need before you do.

double duty

I know you have been in suspense because I keep mentioning things with a "details later" at the end of the sentence.

Let me fill you in.

First - I have the most awesome best friend EVER! She knows how frustrated I have been with my wardrobe problems of late (not the pregnancy part, or even the expanding part, but the part where I want to look nice but nothing fits) and have had some issues finding maternity clothes that are up to my fashion standards (!). So this weekend - she picked me up a whole bag of great things - some I can wear now, some for later, all cute and fashion-worthy!! How wonderful is she?!!

Second - Life plans. I have made a decision. I am not going back to medical school (i know, you are really shocked) - but I am going to continue my education. I am planning on taking the GRE in october in order to apply for a Masters of Public Health program, which is ironically run through the medical school I no longer want to attend. small effin world. But anywho --- I tossed around psychology for a while, and while I think this is something I would enjoy very much, the 5-6yrs MORE of school makes me sick to my stomach, and I don't have enough exposure to know if this is REALLY the direction I want to take - not enough to make such a commitment anyway. I have a feeling that no matter what, I may end up with a Ph.D behind my name one day (and Dr. before...) , but I want to start smaller for the moment.

Third - Job! Promotion! Company cell phone! I have been there for 3.5 days, and already feel like I am moving up in the world. I had a meeting Wed. with the boss & CFO about myself, the company and what they want to do with me. It's all good, very good. AND very much something I want to be doing - direct patient care, research, education, continuity and community outreach - all wrapped up into one developing package. Much job (& financial) security which is comforting. It'll be a little bit of a slow start while I learn more about the basics of the company - but to know that things are moving up - is a great feeling.

Fourth - baby is growing!! ok, I am growing, but still! Feeling crappy (and loving it) still. Heartbeat in 2 weeks! Nervous how to tell work after that....

have you missed me?

I have been SO busy lately - what with actually working nowadays and the busy weekend and all. It's ok, I am thankful for that, mentally at least - my body is telling me something different. Tired beyond belief, alldaysickness doesn't want to go away and migraines (but the new medicine is working a little). But you know what - I am 8w4d and I couldn't be happier despite all of this...

Mike had a great birthday! We baked in the sun at the indians game with 2 of our best friends and had a great day hanging out with them followed up by a labor day cookout with my family and lunch with his parents. We're going to be getting a GPS for his birthday - so his present is a little late. Although the baby did get him a tshirt of his favorite team.... michigan... i swear it was from the baby and not me! (Go Bucks!!)

I actually have some very interesting news, but it will have to wait until I have more time/energy.

In the mean time, visit Tiffanie (and her guest blogger Colleen) as they await baby Mason's arrival. [she was induced yesterday afternoon]

late breaking news

First things first - OB appt #1.

Went great! I feel so much better now that I know there is a baby growing in there for REAL! She answered all of my questions, gave me some new drugs for my migraines (which have been beyond bad lately) and some tricks for the nausea. Now we have to think about: which hospital we want to deliever at and if want to use midwives v. doctor. All things to keep in mind over the next few months! In 3 weeks we get to hear the heartbeat and I am so so excited for this!!

Next up - NEW JOB!!

So on thursday I was calling to check on a couple leads about jobs - nothing. Took a shower. When I got out - one of those places was calling back to say that they had something for me, it started tomorrow (friday), do I want it. I was like uh - hell ya! [but i just yes, of course!] So I went in yesterday afternoon - it was a little boring but they didn't want to 'overwhelm' me. Hopefully soon they will see that it takes a LOT to get me to that point!! But, really I am thankful for full-time employment and don't even want to complain. Everyone so far has been SO nice. The bad thing: no one knows I am pregnant yet - and I didn't know how to go about eating something every hour or so, so I didn't. I almost died on the way home because my migraine came on full swing [it always does in the car]. I sat in the dark sleeping/whimpering from 5:30 until I actually fell asleep for good at about 10:30. Terrible way to end a great day. But now I will just have to snack and hope no one cares - can't be going through that everyday.

OOH - and I think I have made a decision about the rest of my life, more on this later.

My Husband Rocks

why does he rock this week you ask.....

Because it's his birthday on monday! And he has been sooo helpful the past few days - he even rubbed my feet :) But mostly because it's his birthday and he has been helpful for the whole year! I know this one is kind of vague - but more to come after all the birthday celebrations!

-AND a big update from me later on tonight/tomorrow!

Honored

Who says you need to me in school or at a terrific job to get an award? NOT ME!!! You can get awards for your blog - and I got nominated for the same one TWICE!! How very awesome, and sweet of these girls. Tiff is waiting on her little boy to come on out, trying to induce natural childbirth any way she can, and making us all laugh and anticipate this little one as much as her and her husband! Caiti is the sweetest girl ever - and is stronger than I think I could be - her husband is in the navy, and she has to deal with his frequent absence. I think she is doing a great job, and her blog is fun to read!

Now, no one likes a selfish blogger -- so I need to pass this on to some of my favorite people.

first up - Jen @ Maybe if you just relax. She's whitty, she's sarcastic, she's knocked up! What more do you need in a blogger [& IRL] friend?! I love her and the strength both her and her husband have shown through this journey.

second - another Jen! @ I blog because of Peer Pressure. Another whitty, fun, knocked up friend!! She has also gone through quite the journey to get to where she is today, much to be commended. And, she has an awesome camera like me and takes fun pictures!

third - Mel @ Where's my belly. I have been following her journey through life and babymaking for a while now, and she is such an inspirational person. I love reading her posts and putting things back into perspective when needed. And she is always listening to my problems... ;)

fourth - Tiffanie @ Equal opportunity Hater. She is hilarious! She works her ass off and always has a fun story to tell! She has also been a great supporter to me recently and that in itself deserves an award!

and last but no least - Jamie @ J.Marie Photography. I know, it's not a real, talking blog. But it is a real photography blog - and she takes wonderful pictures. AND Jamie is one of the sweetest, most genuine people I have met on the internet!

Now - I know you want to pass on the love - here's how:

1. Add the logo of the award to your blog.

2. Add the link of the blogger who awarded you.

3. Nominate at least 5 other blogs.

4. Add those 5 links to your post.

5. Leave a message for your winners on their blogs.

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That is all the fun for today - will update after the dr's tomorrow!

7w3d

Time is going FAST! some days drag... but the weeks just keep on ticking by.

How am I feeling you ask? Like complete crap!! I can't believe just how much I am reacting to this pregnancy -- while I haven't actually vomited - the nausea is overwhelming most of the day. I am so so SO tired - I can take a 2 hour nap in the afternoon and still be in bed by 9:30! And as my husband would say, I have super-sonic smelling powers, which do not help the nausea problem. But - I am enjoying all of it as much as I can. I try not to complain, because who the hell wants to hear that?!! I just make my husband nuts by wanting to eat all the time ;) We have our first appt on friday - pretty excited about that. Oh ya, and my wardrobe is shrinking by the day.....

can you see why my pants don't fit now?!!

You know what makes me feel worse than this though - not having a job that I want/feel I am totally qualified for. I am not used to being someone who doesn't contribute to society in some way - and this is in fact harder for me than anything else. I am scared that I won't get the job i want/need in time, you know , before they don't want to hire me b/c of the baby. I am exploring a lot of options - taking a few classes this semester, trying to do work from home, just having a few part time positions, subbing etc. None of these would make as happy as if I had that job I am longing for!! [who ever says that?!!] Not to say I don't enjoy my time at home, to do things that I need to WHEN I want to etc. - that part is pretty fabulous!

I haven't been the most exciting person lately - but Mike's birthday is this weekend and we have some fun plans for that, so maybe my posts will be a little spicer next week!

you like?!

my friend Erin re-vamped her page and I decided it was time for a change in mine too. I used the link she gave - Leelou Blogs - and went to town!!

It took me a minute, but I got it!! (if you have a cutestblogontheblock background - you have to delete the html on your page first - the one that is on your sidebar.)

wha'daya think?!!

M. H. R.

you know - my husband rocks today (almost everday!)

here's why this week:
1) he tells me i am beautiful every.day. He has done this for as long as I can remember - and now that my midsection is growing at epic proportions (or at least it seems that way, according to my wardrobe) he still thinks I am beautiful!!

2) he cooked me dinner last night - on the grill - after coming home from lacrosse - w.o showering first. I realize this sounds maybe not love-like... but he did it because he didn't want me to eat too late. Such the caring and concerned husband he is these days - lets hope in about 8m he is still the same caring and concerned man instead of a tired, cranky daddy!!

not ideal, but it'll do

So I had that interview yesterday - they offered me the job. I took it for now. It's only part-time and really not what I want to be doing [i think i said that before!] but you know, I need to be doing something! so i won't complain [much] and pray that something more along the lines of what I am hoping for comes along soon.

Speaking of that.... after I left the interview yesterday I got a phone call from a place I would LOVE to work. Talked for a little while and was just finishing up the phone call when my call was dropped! I couldn't call back b/c it came up as 'unavailable' but I am still hopeful that their hiring team will call soon. [i really have nothing else to be except hopeful]

I am still on the fence about what to do with my little old life - attempt to jump into a whole new program, modify what I was doing before (still more & different school), suck it up and do what everyone wants me to do..... it's all overwhelming me at the moment! I know that I don't have to decide now - unless of course I want to take a class or 2 this fall - then I should probably come up with a decision pretty soon. I have come to the conclusion that no matter what I do - I have to love it. I can't spend another 2-5yrs being unhappy and frustrated. It's not even the amount of time or $$ that bothers me with my choices right now, it's the fact that I can't make up my mind! I hope that one day the right decision just comes to me - one day sooner than later. No matter what, I am not done educating myself - as hard as I know it will be at this point with the baby and things - it is worth it to make a better life for my family. There are still things I want to accomplish, and really, there isn't much that will stop me from doing that.

My Husband Rocks... even on saturdays!

So I realize that I missed last week all together and I missed yesterday -- But not to worry, my hubs rocks everyday!

This week - it has to be because of his attentiveness. He is always making sure I eat enough, sleep enough, get exercise etc. And - he is so excited about this baby that it makes my heart melt! I knew he would be great about everything, but I never imagined he would be THIS great!

Warm Fuzzy

... exactly how I feel from all the love everyone has shown!

I really do believe that everything is working out in *just* the way it is supposed to - God is good!

However, I feel sick all day long - not to the point that it is unbearable - but to where I just want to sleep so I will feel better. And sleep I do - naps, to bed early - my poor husband hardly sees me in a fully consious state! But you know - I am absolutly willing to feel however and take whatever is heading my way to have a healthy baby.

In other news - I have another interview on Monday! It is not for a position that I ideally would like, but it might not be so bad, and at this point I am willing to do whatever it takes to make things work! What does make me a little nervous for whenever I become employeed again - is the pregnancy issue. I don't plan on telling any prospective employeers about it until I am actually hired & things look good (for me and for the position). Does this seem like an ok way to approach it? I don't want it to seem like I am being deceptive by not saying anything right away, but the way I am looking at it is that if I were employeed today I wouldn't be ready to tell yet anyway. Opinions? Suggestions?

Still undecided on what my future will hold, but I still have a few more weeks to work that out. I am gathering info on all things necessary at this point. And trying not to freak out at the prospect of having to start paying on my Mount Everest of student loan debt in a few short months....

Tuesday Teaser - 100th post addition

dear internet,

I have something really fun to share with you today....

first BFP in 8 months (8.5.08) & 1 is all we need

I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner - had to tell our families and such first since they read this little ol' blog of mine! We are very very excited and more than a little shocked. [and believe me when I tell you that I have renewed faith in the saying "everything happens for a reason"]

Speaking of telling our parents - we waited until this weekend to tell them & it went really great. My mom & sisters found out on our little trip - they were shocked, excited, nervous - but most of all they didn't all the way believe me. My mom is insisting she is too young to be a grandma and my sisters are already arguing over who will be the better aunt! Mike's parents had no idea we were ever TTC - so they were a little more than shocked. It took them about 5min to process what we told them and as soon as his mom realized we were serious she started jumping up and down saying "we're having a baby!" over and over!! His grandma was also really excited, shocked but excited to be a great-grandma - she said now she can brag to her sisters about it!!

So - it went well, the few friends who know are all really excited for us and that means so much to mike and i.

We are of course nervous [b/c well, who wouldn't be a little bit?] but excitement is overwhelming. Mike is adorable always wanting to make sure I have enough sleep [am exhausted] and enough to eat [am nauseus] -- he is very attentive and into the whole thing!

Enough for one day? Probably! Oh ya... and I have an interview tomorrow!

as promised

my sister feeding the Giraffe at the wild animal safari

the albino zebra who is so cute!
Me and Jacqui heading to Put-In-Bay
And the little one too!
Our transportation for the day!
Me and my mom
Cute sign....

and chocolate!!

home sweet home!

i'm back! i know not gone long, but still....

we had so much fun on our trip lots of pictures were taken & much fun had by all. I however, do not have the pictures uploaded from my camera yet - so stay tuned for that!

We were in Port Clinton/Put-in-Bay - and it was really fun, almost like being at the ocean it was so peaceful and pretty up there. We took this crazy animal safari ride - and pretty much my entire family is a bunch of chickens since everytime a large animal would come up to our car we would roll our windows up b/c we didn't want them to get in the car! [although my little sister did get drooled on my a big dear or moose or something!] Today we went to P-I-B, it was a little chilly but that area is also really fun. Plenty to eat and drink that is for sure.....

I really don't have too much else to say - so I will update tomorrow with some fun pictures, because who doesn't love picturs!

tag you're it!

So I got a tag from VA Blondie @ Do without Doing yesterday and i wanted to do it, as this is my first ever tagging experience!

Rules:
1. Link to the person who tagged you
2. Post the rules on your blog
3. Write 6 random things about yourself
4. Tag 6 people at the end of your post and link to them
5. Let each person you have tagged know by leaving a comment on their blog
6. Let the tagger know when your entry is posted.

fair enough huh?!

My random things:

1. i have this thing about socks - i hate them, can't wear them. They make my feet feel like they are suffocating. I hardly even wear them in the winter.
2. speaking of feet, I happen to think I have the cutest feet ever! no really, they are adorable and so nicely proportioned to the rest of me - as well as an A+ toe:foot ratio....
3. I have really enjoyed the house to myself this week, however, I do not enjoy the bed to myself - I haven't gotten a "good" nights sleep in a few days
4. My younger sister looks more like my twin - than my twin sister does.
5. I really enjoy working out, however I have been the most lazy unmotivated person for about a month [or 2 or 3] or so. When I do workout - I feel great and am so glad I did, I just need to psyc myself up for it these days.
6. My dress for my mom's wedding is really cute & I like it a lot. BUT I am a proud card-carrying member of the ittybittytittycommittee and that part of the dress does not at all like me back.

Now for my taggees

Tiffanie @ Equal Opportunity Hater

Jill @ Maybe it's just me

Nit @ Soldiers girl

Kristie @ Different is always good

Alicia @ Pieces of Me

Erin @ babyfat

**am going out of town this weekend, will post hair [and assuredly lots of other] pictures when I return! [i know you are waiting anxiously over this!]

Bachelorette in the house....

ok well kinda, at least for the week! Mike left yesterday for his trip to NY - all lacrosse all the time. Am I sad he is gone? of course! Do I wish I was with him on this trip? No, not really.... I would love to visit Lake Placid - but on my own time, with my own agenda ;) I know he will have a great time however so that is good. I am actually going on a little trip of my own this weekend - a last ho-rah if you will for my mom! Myself, mom, and 2 sisters are going on a little weekend getaway, it should be pretty fun!

Now - about this bachelorette business.... what is a girl to do with the house all to herself?

Well yesterday I went to the zoo with my sisters

and then came home and just vegged - picked up here and there, boring!

Today - i am getting my hairs cut! [oh i hear the jealousy raging through each of you] and am having dinner with my BFF. Those are all the "real" plans I have. I have one job app to send in - I really like the sounds of the position so cross your crossables! I also might go to the library - I have pretty much finished the books I have here, more summer reading for me!

So - sorry for the boring update, but when I throw my wild party b/c i have the house to myself - I will definatly let you all in on it ;)