Wednesday, July 29, 2009
-- G was doing GREAT on the Prevacid. Until last week. Now we are heading back the wrong direction and her pedi doesn't want to increase her dose.....
-- Buying a house may or may not be in our future, everytime we think we have the paperwork/issue figured out - something new comes up. This time, the problem may not be something I can fix... and that SUCKS in a big way. So much for that part of "the dream".
-- Financially for every success we have, there's a debt to take it's place
-- The weight's coming off nicely - but I feel set back in my 5k training from being sick the past 2 wks. and still, my pants don't fit.
I guess I am just overwhelmed and frustrated with everything that is going on. I am trying to get/keep everything under control - but I feel like it isn't working, at least not as well as I want it too. A break would be awesome.....
Monday, July 27, 2009
Oh, nevermind. I will eat these awesome hands instead. NOM NOM
Hey, I bet these things would taste better if I were in a different direction.....
LOOK MAMA, I ROLLED OVER. Now, where are those hands again??
Belly to Back success for Miss G at 3.5months! She surprised herself when she did it, then she repeated the action, so I knew it was on purpose!
Friday, July 24, 2009
BUT - despite that, we had a movie night this week.
And it was fun.
And we smiled and laughed a lot.
Without a baby.
Mike rocks this week because no matter what is going on, he can make me smile - usually without trying. And he can makes me feel special - that loving feeling if you will!! ;) love you!!
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Once for drinks, the other to see Mary Poppins with my sisters.
To be totally honest - before she was born, I thought I would go out a lot more often without her. But I don't. And I don't want to. I miss the little bug when I am away from her!! I don't know if it's because I am back to work so I don't get to see her all day or if she is just that fabulous that I want to hang out with her smiling self all the time. Probably both.
Also, another reason, I am picky on the babysitting. I have my reliables - mom, step-dad, sisters. I let them watch her without blinking twice. Anyone else, not so much. She is a bit of a tough cookie at times and I just don't want anyone who is not comfortable with her to be left alone. I don't care if you SAY you are comfortable, when she starts screaming bloody murder and wriggling around like she's possesed you are going to think twice. I do. If you can't spend more than an hour with her when her dad or I are present without getting a little twitchy & nervous, how can you watch her when we aren't there? And have me be okay with it? Sure, she is fun when she wants to be - but she sure has her moments..... So ya, I could leave her with more people - but she is my kid and I don't like to just "hand her off" if there is a way for her to come along to wherever we are going. And, I just won't do it if I don't feel comfortable, I can't.
We are going to a wedding this weekend, she's coming. All of my reliables will be there. I will leave early with her. It'll be okay.
Does anyone else have this problem? Do you want to take your little one with you if you can? do you only leave them with certain people?
Monday, July 20, 2009
Body size compared to weight.
I know I have talked about my efforts to get back in shape on here a few times, but I had a realization over the past week.
I have lost a significant amount of the weight I put on, 12lbs left to go out of the 50+ I packed on! Yay!
I can tell I am losing weight, but I still do not feel like my clothes are fitting the way I want them too. For a fact my ribs expanded and have yet to return to their prior size. Also, my hips expanded the minute that embryo implanted into my uterus, and they also clearly have no plans on returning to "normal" on their own accord.
There is no question that when you get pregnant your body changes, but when does it change BACK?!! or does it not?
I would like to have my "regular" body back, the "mommy body" can go.....
Let's be honest - I know people that way the exact same amount I do yet they wear a totally different size pants then me. Different in the direction I would like to go, that is. It has come to my attention that it totally does not matter how many pounds you are, but the distribution of those pounds.
Currently, mine are distributed on my thighs, hips & tummy - helloooo child birth is over, the hips may return to their previously scheduled sizing.
Since I was sick as hell for the past week+ I haven't been able to run or workout, so that sucks. But I still lost another pound last week - so there was some success.
Friday, July 17, 2009
he went to the grocery store, alone, and bought all the right stuff.
he made me a really good dinner just because.
he cleaned up the house and let me go to bed early.
he made the babies bottles and let me go to bed early.
he got up with the baby in the morning and let me sleep in a little extra.
he helped me make and send out the babies baptism invitations.
all this because he loves me. and because i am sick. but mostly because he loves me ;)
I consider myself blessed to have a husband who helps out around the house, sure, there is always more that *I* think could be done, but the reality is, he does a lot and without him, a lot would not get done.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
She even bought me this REALLY fun new toy just for being 3 months old! I like it a lot, but I am a little too floppy still to use it
I have figured out that my hands are INCREDIBLY entertaining - Mom is always trying to keep them out of my mouth, but what does she know?
It's been a busy month Internet friends!
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
I still can not come up with a good routine for myself. Work all day, visit with the baby, put the baby to sleep, put myself to sleep.....
but you know what is missing in there?
Here let me show you: Husband, eating, chores, friends, general relaxing, exercising/losing my chub, husband.....
I have not eaten a real dinner [on a work day] in weeks, not even exaggerating since i had cereal tonight. at 8:30.
I have had a shit ton of work - and I have to bring some of it home, so baby in bed - me working - hubby is lonely. And frankly, so am I.
I haven't seen my friends in WEEKS (maybe even a month?? longer for some of them).
My house looks like a bomb went off in it in the general areas of - bedroom, laundry area and kitchen 6.5/7 days of the week. [these are by my standards, which are high, we do not live in filth!]
Many things are on the back burner that probably shouldn't be - and I don't have energy to care.
[mom, close your eyes] We haven't had sex in far too long, and you know why, because by 9:15p I am heading for the bed and by 9:17p I am in dreamland. I would like to do it... birth control is in place [thank you Mirena] so no worries on that front but pass the ENERGY please! [ok, mom, you can look now]
Thankfully I do find time to workout/run - just not as often/as much as I would like too.
So, while my little angel has a great routine going most days [at least she goes to bed b/w 7-8 every night and stays there until 7-8 in the morning], her mama is struggling. Some days are so good.... most are so far from that. I need to get this under control before I start school next month because it is only going to get worse.
Then again, the busier I get, the more organized and time efficient I get too....
Not the point!
I want to enjoy the summer, the sunshine, my family. What is/are/do you suggest as a good routine that will give me time to get it all done while working full time?!! [and yes, Mike does help do things around here!]
p.s. i have like, a zillion ADORABLE pictures to show you. but they are all still on my camera. see, just one more thing that isn't getting done!
Monday, July 6, 2009
We had the UGI on Thursday and our pedi called by 9a Friday with the results. No blockages, nothing "bad" - but constant, continuous reflux. [Mike and I actually were in the room during the test and we could see her refluxing on the x-ray machine - it was crazy]
"Solution" - thickened feedings w/ rice cereal.
Who would think to check the ingredients on rice cereal for milk or soy? Well - if your child is intolerant to either of these things, you should. Because we were using Gerber at first - insert screaming bloody murder here. Thanks to the genius of a good friend, we switched her to some organic, non-soy containing rice.
AND THEN she refused to eat. I cut the nipples so the stuff would come out, she didn't care. It took me, and I am not exaggerating here, TWO HOURS to get her to drink TWO OUNCES. Followed by another painstaking three ounces in an hour at her next feeding. Today was better, but it still is taking far too long - she is just plain not interested in eating.
Oh, and the food? It is still on me, her and the floor instead of in her belly. So - tell me how much this is helping please.... We aren't giving up yet, but I'm not holding my breath that this will make things all better.
So - really, we know nothing more than we did last week. But - the prevacid is starting to kick in I think, if you don't count the 3 screaming episodes of today....
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Schedule Upper GI - this is today. I am not nervous or worried, I assumed we would have it done at this point. The girl can hit a target a few feet away when she pukes....and she does it all day, not everyday, but most. Not to mention the crying that follows...it's very sad!