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Saturday, November 15, 2008

motivation

it has been a journey the past few months, between the school/life decisions that had to be made, the baby, starting this job and more. I don't regret any decsion that was made at all, as hard as some of them were/are. But something happened the other day - well probably over a course of days/wks - I started to feel like something is missing or like a puzzle piece isn't fitting right. It fnaally dawned on me what that piece is - medical school. It has been part of my life before I ever saw the inside of the building and it has been part of my future for longer. While I am still a little uncertain on the whole thing and being a doctor is still kind of big and scary to me in ways I can no explain, I think I owe myself a second change.
A chance to see if I can do it, if I can put all of the things I learned and all of the struggles I had/have into a productive "I told ya so". It is going to take a lot of work, a lot of will power and many many hours of studying - but I think I am finally ready to try it again - to take the test with less pressure and more of myself behind it. I would be lying if I told you I wasn't scared, nervous, freaked out! - but I think with some guidance on how to study and doing it one step at a time - I can at least give it a fair (second) chance.
I deserve it, my family deserves it and i think I probably owe it to myself. I plan to take the test before the baby is born - so March sometime. I know exactly how hard it is going to be b/w now and then - but I feel like I am mentally ready now, so here goes nothing......

7 comments:

kimber926 said...

I KNEW you'd go back! Best of luck on the test. We're all pulling for you.

Anonymous said...

Good for you! Pull out First Aid and all your resources, and commit to passing that horrid test! Make a schedule, stick to it, and do your best.

Annegirrl said...

Good luck, Andrea!!

Amy said...

Good luck!

kccat said...

Good luck Andrea!! You can do it.

Mombi said...

Congratulations! I'm so excited for you!

I know you can do it.

Amy said...

You can do it!!!
Good luck!!