Monday, March 7, 2011

Bitch Session

I am what you might call, stressed. A hot mess. Stretched too thin. Over-committed.
Whatever you want to call it, I feel like any second I am going to completely lose my shit.
So I am going to bitch. Just this one time, and I promise to try and not complain anymore because really, it’s all relative and it will all work out. But I need to just get this off my chest real quick.
  • There are 2 adults and 1 small child that live in my house, but a lot of times it feels like quite the opposite.
  • I have 3 calendars – one for “life”, one for school and one for Premier. I need them all. They are each full to the brim of things that have to get done. There are only 24hrs in each day, so if I don’t sleep, eat or play with Gianna maybe I can actually accomplish each day’s tasks (but I can't give up any of those three things, well I give up eating a lot in leu of wine drinking).
  • I would love to hire someone to do my laundry and deep clean the house. I hate those chores. But I also can’t just not do them, because eww, so they get done half-way.
  • I would also love for a money tree to grow in the backyard because, well, we need it. I learned from the best on how to manage money/budget/plan etc but gas being $3.50/gallon is going to start screwing with my money management skills really quickly.
  • Perhaps only females can see when the floor needs swept, dishes need washed, things need straightened up and children need bathed. I am pretty sure of that, actually.
  • My office is a WRECK and I have no time to do anything about it except shift the piles of things to be done around.
  • While I love meal planning, I hate cooking for one person since the other people here refuse to eat anything.
  • It would be awesome if people (besides my mom and sisters) asked me how I was doing, if I needed help with anything or any other similar question instead of asking me for something/adding more things to my never-ending list. I feel like I extend myself to others all the time (which I enjoy doing, don’t get me wrong), but it is definitely a one way street in most cases.
  • There is just so much going on right now, I can’t remember everything. If it is not written down on one of those calendars or a sticky note on my desk, assume it doesn’t exist because I will never remember. I hate that.
  • I also don’t feel like I am doing a very good job on anything I have been working on because there is SO MUCH I can only contribute so much to each thing and when I am an “all in” kind of person, this really gets to me. This includes being a wife and mother.
  • I need a mountain to stand on so I can scream at the top of my lungs. I think that would make me feel better.
  • Treading water sucks. My legs are tired and so is my brain. I know it will all be okay, but is it May yet?


Jules said...

Must be in the water. I seriously want a week off everything. I also have to write everything down. My memory is severly lacking in reliability.

Mama Reg said...

i was like nodding the whole time i was reading that. i feel for you and i am praying for you. thank you for your prayers too. i *think* im getting over the hump...

Delenn said...

Oh, I can really really relate to most of your complaints! ;-) Hope that the Spring brings a sense of renewal for all and less stress for you!

alison said...

Hi. I love you and I think we share a brain. :) You are crazy busy my friend, take care of yourself. Boys are dense, really really dense. I know your hubs is busy too, as we all are. But maybe you can sit down with him for a "state of the household" meeting and come to some agreements about little things (household chores) and big things too.

Don't be afraid to let a few things go (like deep cleaning) for a little bit. Your girl will only be 23 months old this one time, and she needs danced with. :)

You'll survive - and thrive - when May rolls around, promise.

Miss K said...

This could have been my list. Hang in there. Big hugs from TX.

Esperanza said...

Oh my. I think I know what is not being said here. Did you know that marriage adds seven hours of housework to a woman's load and takes one hour away from a man's. Just saying.

I can confirm all the universal truths you hinted at in that post.

All I can say is I'm sorry. And maybe it's time for a family talk.

Anonymous said...

Andrea, we are so alike its scary. I'd write a blog like this, but unfortunately I have readers that like to reak havoc on my life for "bitching" so I'll forever hold my peace. Just know that you are sooo not alone and you're more than welcomed to rant & rave anytime. I couldn't agree more with what you said -- it sounds like my life as well.

Ps. I can't wait for May to get here either... Hang in there girl!

JJ said...

Like I said, you seem like take care of yourself, my dear. We all need to be able to spring clean our brains!

Twin B said...

well if you need a break I am just a drive away and I have wine...

Rebecca said...

You're doing a great job...maybe you have to change your definition of "success."

Mine long as the kids are alive at the end of the day, I've done my job. Everything else will fall into place...eventually.

Those three calendars would drive me NUTS!! We started using Google calendar and it's awesome.

I wish I had an office!

Danifred said...

Hang in there! Keep chugging! You know I can relate and sympathize :)