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Saturday, June 21, 2008

panic in the batcave

t minus 4 days. and i feel like i don't know anything all of a sudden.
fuck.
i should have never logged on to that site and seen that "score checker", proceeded to "check score" of practice test. no. i was happy thinking i was doing ok. now - panic. an intense amount of panic. a few deep breaths in between and a lot of decently productive studying - but mostly panic. If I hear "you're smart - you can do it" one more time, I might implode - or explode on whomever is unlucky enough to say that to me. I know I am smart enough, I just don't know if I am prepared enough - this is a different monster who keeps trying to freak me out everytime time i think i got it out from under my bed.

know what else? my computer is trying to self destruct. yup right now. as i am typing. suddenly it wants to infect itself with lots of shit just to piss me off and ensue more panic, because you know, all of what i need to do is on this thing.

so - when you are in a situation such as this blogger buddies - how do you deal? do you overcompensate and knock it out of the park, do you shut down, suppress your panic with cookies?

15 comments:

Jen said...

I know your test is way different from my tests. But, every time I have a grad school test, I cry a little the night before and tell Mark how I'm going to fail. And everytime, he's like, "You're going to get an A. You do this every time."
I usually do really well.

I think being underconfident is better than overconfident - keeps you working hard!

I hope you do well. I won't say the thing that shall not be said, even though I believe it to be true.

Sarah C. said...

ice cream makes everything better.
Unless you're lactose intolerant.
or diabetic...

:)

KC said...

try doing something you enjoy when you get stressed out. when you are destressed, then try coming back to it.

I haven't taken a test in 3 years so I am not much help.

Good luck

Jill said...

If I start freaking out about a test or anything, really, I find that walking away from it for an hour or two or even a whole evening helps me to clear my mind and become more calm and focused. If you don't get out of the panic situation, it will just eat you alive.

Good luck

C said...

That's a good question, I'd have to ask my hubby how I handled it when I was in grad school. I probably did a bit of both -- procrastinating and over studying. The only times my bathroom was cleaned was when we had guests staying with us or I had a big test coming up. But then again, my program was really pretty easy, especially compared to yours. :)

Good luck!

Annegirrl said...

I have to leave studying when I get stressed out too. Some really good trash TV usually gets me all ready to go again. Go find some Project Runway re-runs or some Rock of Love and it will be all better.

Kymberli said...

I shut down and suppress the panic with cookies, and then when it's time for action I'm focused and knock it out of the park.

I remember when I was spazzing out over the Praxis II teaching certification test (that tons of people were failing left and right on the first and second attempts), I was practically foaming at the mouth in the days before. Frank really helped me settle down and kept saying to me "one shot, one kill." That phrase became like a mantra and it kept me totally focused while taking the test.

I passed it with flying colors the first time through. I'm sending positive "one shot, one kill" vibes your way.

Kymberli said...

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Mombi said...

I usually wait until the last minute, panic and cry, and then cram everything in last minute. I usually do well, but remember nothing afterwards.

Hence, why I didn't pursue a graduate degree.

Nit said...

usually I shut down, then I suppress it with loads of cookies & then I knock it out of the park :)

You will do fine, I'm sure....just remember to breathe :)

Jamie said...

you poor thing.... :(

I'm so sorry. I can't imagine the stress you must be feeling approaching this test!!

But I have a good feeling that you'll be just fine. When this thing is all over with... you'll wonder what you were ever so freaked out about. :)

Thanks so much for the comment on my blog... it was very sweet!

Good luck on your test! I'll be thinking about you!

DC said...

Definitely cookies. I gained about ten pounds while studying for the bar exam. Grrrr.

Good luck with the test!! I'm thinking of you and sending lots of good doctor-y vibes your way. :)

Still Standing Strong in A Bloom of Hope. said...

Oh no..you poor thing! I just completely shut down. I don't think and my mind goes into a complete blank. Like now. No thoughts, nothing.

Hugs.

Tammy said...

Good Luck Andrea! Sending lots of doctor vibes and prayers. =)

~Jess said...

A little of both! Good luck!

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