Tuesday, May 3, 2011

what’s next?

So you have successfully completed your Master’s program – what are you going to do next?
I’m going to Disney World!!!
Okay, yes, I AM going to Disney World (OMG! 28 days!)
But what DOES come next?
Other than cleaning my neglected, dirty house. Getting ready for Disney & taking a minute to just breathe, I have no idea.
I am in a really…weird? different? unexpected… place in my life. I lost my job, and that totally sucked. Until I realized what a GIFT it was – a gift to be home with my daughter every day, to start a new business, to focus and rock the socks off of this Master’s program, to explore the world of academia a little bit more.
But then there is the not-such-a-gift part of the whole thing – stressing about money, health insurance and doing what I can to make these things NOT stressful.
My thought processes after losing my job was – do what you need to do, apply for every job you can and SOMETHING good has to happen. Only it didn’t. So my next though processes was – focus on your degree and wait it out, when you officially have a Master’s degree, SOMEONE will want you.
I am thankful for thought process B, it was just what I needed. 
And now? I can not imagine going back to work full-time. I can not imagine leaving my girl every day again.  But something has to change financially and I didn’t work my big old ass off earning this degree not to use it in some way.  I just don’t know what way that I want to use it.
I guess I am just stuck. I love being home with G and I love being able to write, teach and sell jewelry. It’s not the most financially smart choice, but mentally, it just might be.  If I could find another adjunct position or a work from home position – that would be ideal.  
And then there is that part of me that wants to move forward with a phd…..
Clearly, I have no clue what I want to be when I grow up.


Anonymous said...


It will come to you...

alison said...

In the club with you with not knowing what I want to be when I grow up. You have everything going for you right now, it WILL get sorted out and you WILL have an a-ha moment.

What about some adjuncting positions for online classes? I also love, their job listings are a nice, single place to look for jobs from home.

Good luck! I can't wait to see where this takes you!

Mel said...

Working from home has changed my life. It certainly required a lot of sacrificies on our part, but I wouldn't have it any other way. At least while my kids are young enough and not in school, I pray we can keep this arrangement.

I think you deserve a little time to sit back, breathe and assess. And, I wouldn't be me if I didn't also recommend some prayer and searching out God's will for your life. Sometimes what we think we want and what He wants for us are two totally different things! And, ultimately, I've always learned that his way is beyond best.


Martine said...

Congrats on finishing your degree! I always say no matter what happens in your life, no one can ever take your degree(s) away! What a great accomplishment.

I work full time from home and take care of my son full time... it's tiring but I'd freak out if I had to leave him every day. I hope you can you find something that allows you the ability to be with G.

JJ said...

I still dont know what I want to be when I grow up :)
Have a BLAST at the Mouse House--wish we could go with you!

Rebecca @ Unexplained X2 said...

Sounds like you're quite happy though...doing things that you love.

Something will come along that seems perfect if you just keep your feelers out there.

I still want to go back for a PhD in Clinical Psychology and I'm 37! I don't think I'll EVER grow up!