Life is like a roll of toilet paper. or some shit like that.

We know, by now, that life tends to move faster the older we get.

Remember when watching a 30 minute television show seemed like an ETERNITY?

Or when summer vacation lasted so long you were actually excited to go back to school in the fall?

Or how about when taking an hour to do nothing was *just* enough time to regroup?

And now -

An hour goes by in less than 20 minutes

A month is over before it began

And each year sort of fast forwards into the next.

Why is it that as grown-ups we lose that slow pace to life we had as a child? I know what you are thinking – because we are GROWN UPS, Andrea, Duh!!  Grown-up’s have a lot of responsibility, a social life, children, bills, work, Google calendars that are bursting at the seams with PLANS!  And. If we don’t have all of these things to do – then others may judge us as unsuccessful. LOSERS if you will. 

This is ridiculous.

I can honestly not think of a time since my honeymoon where I had nothing to do. Where I could just sit. When I could truthfully answer that nothing was on my mind (even though I say it all the time now, I am lying, I just don’t like to talk). 

Now? I do not know a time where I am only single-tasking.  My mind is always going a million directions, and that is on a slow day.  So no wonder when I sit down to write or breathe or eat it feels like I have only been doing that activity for 10 minutes when really it has been an hour. Plans and due dates rule my life. Lists control it.

I miss out on things. I may be physically present. But mentally – 80% of the time I am somewhere totally different (even during sex, but you already knew that).  I need to teach myself how to just sit and enjoy a moment.  Sometimes I will just sit and watch G play with her toys (while fighting the urge to take more pictures) and I am envious of her innocence.

One of my goals is to try and be more present. to not let time pass before I have experienced it. to actually make the memories, not just capture them on camera.