late breaking news

First things first - OB appt #1.

Went great! I feel so much better now that I know there is a baby growing in there for REAL! She answered all of my questions, gave me some new drugs for my migraines (which have been beyond bad lately) and some tricks for the nausea. Now we have to think about: which hospital we want to deliever at and if want to use midwives v. doctor. All things to keep in mind over the next few months! In 3 weeks we get to hear the heartbeat and I am so so excited for this!!

Next up - NEW JOB!!

So on thursday I was calling to check on a couple leads about jobs - nothing. Took a shower. When I got out - one of those places was calling back to say that they had something for me, it started tomorrow (friday), do I want it. I was like uh - hell ya! [but i just yes, of course!] So I went in yesterday afternoon - it was a little boring but they didn't want to 'overwhelm' me. Hopefully soon they will see that it takes a LOT to get me to that point!! But, really I am thankful for full-time employment and don't even want to complain. Everyone so far has been SO nice. The bad thing: no one knows I am pregnant yet - and I didn't know how to go about eating something every hour or so, so I didn't. I almost died on the way home because my migraine came on full swing [it always does in the car]. I sat in the dark sleeping/whimpering from 5:30 until I actually fell asleep for good at about 10:30. Terrible way to end a great day. But now I will just have to snack and hope no one cares - can't be going through that everyday.

OOH - and I think I have made a decision about the rest of my life, more on this later.

My Husband Rocks

why does he rock this week you ask.....

Because it's his birthday on monday! And he has been sooo helpful the past few days - he even rubbed my feet :) But mostly because it's his birthday and he has been helpful for the whole year! I know this one is kind of vague - but more to come after all the birthday celebrations!

-AND a big update from me later on tonight/tomorrow!

Honored

Who says you need to me in school or at a terrific job to get an award? NOT ME!!! You can get awards for your blog - and I got nominated for the same one TWICE!! How very awesome, and sweet of these girls. Tiff is waiting on her little boy to come on out, trying to induce natural childbirth any way she can, and making us all laugh and anticipate this little one as much as her and her husband! Caiti is the sweetest girl ever - and is stronger than I think I could be - her husband is in the navy, and she has to deal with his frequent absence. I think she is doing a great job, and her blog is fun to read!

Now, no one likes a selfish blogger -- so I need to pass this on to some of my favorite people.

first up - Jen @ Maybe if you just relax. She's whitty, she's sarcastic, she's knocked up! What more do you need in a blogger [& IRL] friend?! I love her and the strength both her and her husband have shown through this journey.

second - another Jen! @ I blog because of Peer Pressure. Another whitty, fun, knocked up friend!! She has also gone through quite the journey to get to where she is today, much to be commended. And, she has an awesome camera like me and takes fun pictures!

third - Mel @ Where's my belly. I have been following her journey through life and babymaking for a while now, and she is such an inspirational person. I love reading her posts and putting things back into perspective when needed. And she is always listening to my problems... ;)

fourth - Tiffanie @ Equal opportunity Hater. She is hilarious! She works her ass off and always has a fun story to tell! She has also been a great supporter to me recently and that in itself deserves an award!

and last but no least - Jamie @ J.Marie Photography. I know, it's not a real, talking blog. But it is a real photography blog - and she takes wonderful pictures. AND Jamie is one of the sweetest, most genuine people I have met on the internet!

Now - I know you want to pass on the love - here's how:

1. Add the logo of the award to your blog.

2. Add the link of the blogger who awarded you.

3. Nominate at least 5 other blogs.

4. Add those 5 links to your post.

5. Leave a message for your winners on their blogs.

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That is all the fun for today - will update after the dr's tomorrow!

7w3d

Time is going FAST! some days drag... but the weeks just keep on ticking by.

How am I feeling you ask? Like complete crap!! I can't believe just how much I am reacting to this pregnancy -- while I haven't actually vomited - the nausea is overwhelming most of the day. I am so so SO tired - I can take a 2 hour nap in the afternoon and still be in bed by 9:30! And as my husband would say, I have super-sonic smelling powers, which do not help the nausea problem. But - I am enjoying all of it as much as I can. I try not to complain, because who the hell wants to hear that?!! I just make my husband nuts by wanting to eat all the time ;) We have our first appt on friday - pretty excited about that. Oh ya, and my wardrobe is shrinking by the day.....

can you see why my pants don't fit now?!!

You know what makes me feel worse than this though - not having a job that I want/feel I am totally qualified for. I am not used to being someone who doesn't contribute to society in some way - and this is in fact harder for me than anything else. I am scared that I won't get the job i want/need in time, you know , before they don't want to hire me b/c of the baby. I am exploring a lot of options - taking a few classes this semester, trying to do work from home, just having a few part time positions, subbing etc. None of these would make as happy as if I had that job I am longing for!! [who ever says that?!!] Not to say I don't enjoy my time at home, to do things that I need to WHEN I want to etc. - that part is pretty fabulous!

I haven't been the most exciting person lately - but Mike's birthday is this weekend and we have some fun plans for that, so maybe my posts will be a little spicer next week!

you like?!

my friend Erin re-vamped her page and I decided it was time for a change in mine too. I used the link she gave - Leelou Blogs - and went to town!!

It took me a minute, but I got it!! (if you have a cutestblogontheblock background - you have to delete the html on your page first - the one that is on your sidebar.)

wha'daya think?!!

M. H. R.

you know - my husband rocks today (almost everday!)

here's why this week:
1) he tells me i am beautiful every.day. He has done this for as long as I can remember - and now that my midsection is growing at epic proportions (or at least it seems that way, according to my wardrobe) he still thinks I am beautiful!!

2) he cooked me dinner last night - on the grill - after coming home from lacrosse - w.o showering first. I realize this sounds maybe not love-like... but he did it because he didn't want me to eat too late. Such the caring and concerned husband he is these days - lets hope in about 8m he is still the same caring and concerned man instead of a tired, cranky daddy!!

not ideal, but it'll do

So I had that interview yesterday - they offered me the job. I took it for now. It's only part-time and really not what I want to be doing [i think i said that before!] but you know, I need to be doing something! so i won't complain [much] and pray that something more along the lines of what I am hoping for comes along soon.

Speaking of that.... after I left the interview yesterday I got a phone call from a place I would LOVE to work. Talked for a little while and was just finishing up the phone call when my call was dropped! I couldn't call back b/c it came up as 'unavailable' but I am still hopeful that their hiring team will call soon. [i really have nothing else to be except hopeful]

I am still on the fence about what to do with my little old life - attempt to jump into a whole new program, modify what I was doing before (still more & different school), suck it up and do what everyone wants me to do..... it's all overwhelming me at the moment! I know that I don't have to decide now - unless of course I want to take a class or 2 this fall - then I should probably come up with a decision pretty soon. I have come to the conclusion that no matter what I do - I have to love it. I can't spend another 2-5yrs being unhappy and frustrated. It's not even the amount of time or $$ that bothers me with my choices right now, it's the fact that I can't make up my mind! I hope that one day the right decision just comes to me - one day sooner than later. No matter what, I am not done educating myself - as hard as I know it will be at this point with the baby and things - it is worth it to make a better life for my family. There are still things I want to accomplish, and really, there isn't much that will stop me from doing that.

My Husband Rocks... even on saturdays!

So I realize that I missed last week all together and I missed yesterday -- But not to worry, my hubs rocks everyday!

This week - it has to be because of his attentiveness. He is always making sure I eat enough, sleep enough, get exercise etc. And - he is so excited about this baby that it makes my heart melt! I knew he would be great about everything, but I never imagined he would be THIS great!

Warm Fuzzy

... exactly how I feel from all the love everyone has shown!

I really do believe that everything is working out in *just* the way it is supposed to - God is good!

However, I feel sick all day long - not to the point that it is unbearable - but to where I just want to sleep so I will feel better. And sleep I do - naps, to bed early - my poor husband hardly sees me in a fully consious state! But you know - I am absolutly willing to feel however and take whatever is heading my way to have a healthy baby.

In other news - I have another interview on Monday! It is not for a position that I ideally would like, but it might not be so bad, and at this point I am willing to do whatever it takes to make things work! What does make me a little nervous for whenever I become employeed again - is the pregnancy issue. I don't plan on telling any prospective employeers about it until I am actually hired & things look good (for me and for the position). Does this seem like an ok way to approach it? I don't want it to seem like I am being deceptive by not saying anything right away, but the way I am looking at it is that if I were employeed today I wouldn't be ready to tell yet anyway. Opinions? Suggestions?

Still undecided on what my future will hold, but I still have a few more weeks to work that out. I am gathering info on all things necessary at this point. And trying not to freak out at the prospect of having to start paying on my Mount Everest of student loan debt in a few short months....

Tuesday Teaser - 100th post addition

dear internet,

I have something really fun to share with you today....

first BFP in 8 months (8.5.08) & 1 is all we need

I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner - had to tell our families and such first since they read this little ol' blog of mine! We are very very excited and more than a little shocked. [and believe me when I tell you that I have renewed faith in the saying "everything happens for a reason"]

Speaking of telling our parents - we waited until this weekend to tell them & it went really great. My mom & sisters found out on our little trip - they were shocked, excited, nervous - but most of all they didn't all the way believe me. My mom is insisting she is too young to be a grandma and my sisters are already arguing over who will be the better aunt! Mike's parents had no idea we were ever TTC - so they were a little more than shocked. It took them about 5min to process what we told them and as soon as his mom realized we were serious she started jumping up and down saying "we're having a baby!" over and over!! His grandma was also really excited, shocked but excited to be a great-grandma - she said now she can brag to her sisters about it!!

So - it went well, the few friends who know are all really excited for us and that means so much to mike and i.

We are of course nervous [b/c well, who wouldn't be a little bit?] but excitement is overwhelming. Mike is adorable always wanting to make sure I have enough sleep [am exhausted] and enough to eat [am nauseus] -- he is very attentive and into the whole thing!

Enough for one day? Probably! Oh ya... and I have an interview tomorrow!

as promised

my sister feeding the Giraffe at the wild animal safari

the albino zebra who is so cute!
Me and Jacqui heading to Put-In-Bay
And the little one too!
Our transportation for the day!
Me and my mom
Cute sign....

and chocolate!!

home sweet home!

i'm back! i know not gone long, but still....

we had so much fun on our trip lots of pictures were taken & much fun had by all. I however, do not have the pictures uploaded from my camera yet - so stay tuned for that!

We were in Port Clinton/Put-in-Bay - and it was really fun, almost like being at the ocean it was so peaceful and pretty up there. We took this crazy animal safari ride - and pretty much my entire family is a bunch of chickens since everytime a large animal would come up to our car we would roll our windows up b/c we didn't want them to get in the car! [although my little sister did get drooled on my a big dear or moose or something!] Today we went to P-I-B, it was a little chilly but that area is also really fun. Plenty to eat and drink that is for sure.....

I really don't have too much else to say - so I will update tomorrow with some fun pictures, because who doesn't love picturs!

tag you're it!

So I got a tag from VA Blondie @ Do without Doing yesterday and i wanted to do it, as this is my first ever tagging experience!

Rules:
1. Link to the person who tagged you
2. Post the rules on your blog
3. Write 6 random things about yourself
4. Tag 6 people at the end of your post and link to them
5. Let each person you have tagged know by leaving a comment on their blog
6. Let the tagger know when your entry is posted.

fair enough huh?!

My random things:

1. i have this thing about socks - i hate them, can't wear them. They make my feet feel like they are suffocating. I hardly even wear them in the winter.
2. speaking of feet, I happen to think I have the cutest feet ever! no really, they are adorable and so nicely proportioned to the rest of me - as well as an A+ toe:foot ratio....
3. I have really enjoyed the house to myself this week, however, I do not enjoy the bed to myself - I haven't gotten a "good" nights sleep in a few days
4. My younger sister looks more like my twin - than my twin sister does.
5. I really enjoy working out, however I have been the most lazy unmotivated person for about a month [or 2 or 3] or so. When I do workout - I feel great and am so glad I did, I just need to psyc myself up for it these days.
6. My dress for my mom's wedding is really cute & I like it a lot. BUT I am a proud card-carrying member of the ittybittytittycommittee and that part of the dress does not at all like me back.

Now for my taggees

Tiffanie @ Equal Opportunity Hater

Jill @ Maybe it's just me

Nit @ Soldiers girl

Kristie @ Different is always good

Alicia @ Pieces of Me

Erin @ babyfat

**am going out of town this weekend, will post hair [and assuredly lots of other] pictures when I return! [i know you are waiting anxiously over this!]

Bachelorette in the house....

ok well kinda, at least for the week! Mike left yesterday for his trip to NY - all lacrosse all the time. Am I sad he is gone? of course! Do I wish I was with him on this trip? No, not really.... I would love to visit Lake Placid - but on my own time, with my own agenda ;) I know he will have a great time however so that is good. I am actually going on a little trip of my own this weekend - a last ho-rah if you will for my mom! Myself, mom, and 2 sisters are going on a little weekend getaway, it should be pretty fun!

Now - about this bachelorette business.... what is a girl to do with the house all to herself?

Well yesterday I went to the zoo with my sisters

and then came home and just vegged - picked up here and there, boring!

Today - i am getting my hairs cut! [oh i hear the jealousy raging through each of you] and am having dinner with my BFF. Those are all the "real" plans I have. I have one job app to send in - I really like the sounds of the position so cross your crossables! I also might go to the library - I have pretty much finished the books I have here, more summer reading for me!

So - sorry for the boring update, but when I throw my wild party b/c i have the house to myself - I will definatly let you all in on it ;)

productivity at its finest

so, today should have been my first day of school.
i can't decide if i am sad, relieved, angry, happy or if i really don't care that i am not there today. and that i won't be there any day ever.

what today is - however - is productive. i have a lot i want to get done around the house and a few errands i want to run because the hubs is leaving for NY tomorrow for a big lax tourny. I will miss him. I also am not entirely sure what I am going to do with myself when he is gone. Each day I try to find things to do... and it is getting harder & harder. Not to say there aren't things to do, because there always are, but I want to be doing productive things, productive things that involve earning $$. I am not giving up on this search however, each day I apply for at least 2 new positions. Also I decided that since I seem to have so much tme on my hands, I should do something worthwhile with it, like volunteer somewhere. So I am on the hunt as well for a place to spend some QT about once every week or so, pref. a place that works with children.

I still can't seem to make a decision on what to do with my life, I think I decide one day, and then I look for other options the next. I made a deadline of Oct 1 - by then I will have to know what I am doing in order to prepare for it, whatever IT is. and by Dec. 1 I will want to have everything in order for that IT i decided on. I work best under guidelines (i think it goes along with the list thing).

oh, one other thing -- my dear old AF is still MIA. that lady never shows up on time these days. i am not motivated to POAS, not even a little, which is wierd considering i have a small stash of them in my bathroom. i'm sure she'll come around eventually - she always does.

My Husband Rocks

I saw this on Jill's blog a few weeks ago and wanted to show you all how much my husband rocks too!!

Why does he rock this week --- because he is working his butt off everyday to make things work based on our [my] recent life changes. And not only has he been working to provide for us, but he has been working to help out both of our families. His dad recently had his knee replaced and he has been doing a lot to help them out. My mom is trying to sell her house and he does so much to help her out when she needs it. He has just been really starting to step up to the plate and it's wonderful to see.