a house, a better investment than a baby

yes this is really what someone told my husband, the someone has children.

this is one reason i wish no one knew we were TTC - but clearly since i have told the internet, that whole privacy thing has gone out the window some. But in reality, only a handful of people know, and of those handful it's a sixty:forty split of opinions on whether mike and i are "old enough", "rich enough", "mature enough", "____ enough" to have a child. (the 60's are ok with it and the 40's have other ideas of when the 'right time' would be)

to this - i am slightly annoyed b/c most of the people who choose to share their not-so-humble opinions i value very much, but honestly, do you think before you speak? I am not a very spontaneous person - in fact, i have made quite good friends with my excel software and use it for very strange things (story for a different day) - but what i am getting at here is the whole "let's have a baby" thing didn't just come up on a whim. In the past 4-5 months we have hit a few (1-2) speed bumps that would have been there anyhow, we are/have dealt with them and are moving on and up.

I have researched the cost of the most expensive 'baby things' - ie daycare, to a certain extent and we are not unprepared as seems to be such a popular belief for some reason. We have discussed all possible situations that we could come up with and those that others threw our way and still, we want to start a family. While we value [mostof] your opinions, we would love it if you did the same with ours.

So from the outside it might not look like the right time what with me running around like a chicken with it's head cut off most days of the week and mike doing all the stuff he does - but from the inside - it's pretty close to being perfect.*

*perfect besides the fact that we aren't pg yet...

where's andrea?

next year it'll be like a game to see which hospital i am at, for which service and for how long! (for you and me....)

we had our "auction" yesterday - it was nothing less than interesting - but for those of you that care, and those that don't - i am posting this anyway.

• 8/11-10/17/08 - Internal Medicine - Summa (Akron City)
• 10/20-12/19/08 - Surgery - Mercy Medical Center
• 1/12-2/20/09 - Psychiatry - AGMC/St. Thomas
• 2/23-4/3/09 - Family Practice - Barberton
• 4/27-6/12/09 - Pediatrics - Akron Children's
• 6/15-7/31/09 - OB/GYN - AGMC

So there you have it, it's not exactly what I wanted, but it's almost perfect so I'm not gonna complain! and it's all close to home.

now... lets pass step 1 (since i am no longer stressing about the academic year) and this schedule will be officially active..... - and GO!

thumbs down

sonofabitch, musta been the flu.*



i'll keep the baby dust in storage until nxt month - it's very much appreciated

*at least i didn't have to wait until friday?

::tick tock::

is it friday yet? b/c that would be fabulous - i would know if the reason i have felt like complete CRAP the past few days is b/c i am getting the flu or a little person is nesting inside of me......

since i feel like being a big baby at the moment - here are my symptoms:

• nausea - constantly after 5p past 3 or so days, and in the am too sometimes
• sore throat since thursday
• heart burn
• headaches (migraine 2 days ago... but i get those as we all know)
• t.i.r.e.d - i took a nap! 2 days in a row!
• my belly hurts (nausea? cramps? waaahhhh)

ok that's enough i think.... i'm sure i could come up with more, but that is enough! (and the other stuff may be TMI!) I know i said that this time the 'tww' or w/e had gone pretty fast, and yes that is true - until today. all of a sudden i just need it to be friday, or i should just be a big girl and go buy a freaking test and take it so i stop my wondering already and can get on with my life. As we all know, i am not the most optomistic of people so i don't really think i am pg, i guess i want to just know for sure i am not? or that i am? Every month when it gets to this stage i get all wierd about it.

But - on the flip side, one of my best friends could be pg at the same time as me, so send your baby dust to both of us - at the same time plz as this would be cool. we are both trying - so yes we would appreciate to have babies together!

Oh and send some to Jen -she would also love some of your baby dust, i don't mind sharing, as you can tell by all of the women who surround me, there is enough to go around.

I'll be back in a few days - probably with a thumbs up or a thumbs down (and maybe even some news to share about what hospitals you can find me at starting in august... ooh aahhh....)

open letter

dear acne fairy:
please leave me alone... my face is finally starting to look normal again after you decided to take up a new place of residance over night. I did nothing wrong - nothing at all. But now, must you attack, of all places, my back? who gets pimples on their back? honestly. the middle of my back - no one can even see you there, i'm not embarrassed. i'm annoyed. so just go away and embarrass someone else. that sounds like a super awesome plan to me - ok thanks buy.

your mean landlord