blogosphere:inreallife

So, have you ever met anyone from a message board or a fellow blogger in real life? like for real?!! You know all these things about them and have probably seem all of these pictures from all kinds of personal moments in their lifes, but never seen them in the flesh. Weell, none of my "true" IRL friends blog, but many of my "internet" friends blog --- which makes them, what? my blogging friends?! When I first met them IRL, my mom especially though I was going to meet some super stalkers or something and gave me a really hard time about it, but now I think she is ok. Husband figured, they are women - what harm can they do besides chat your ear off?!!

here we are at xmas... you might recognize at least one famous face - like jen and then there's a few "new" bloggers: jill, shereen, kelly, kristie, stacy, tiffanie, and kristin - they are quite entertaining as well! and they are my friends, so i think they are pretty awesome....

here's a more recent picture of my IRL internet friends!

speaking of internet and friends, a few wks ago Alison at the baby crusade had this contest for her blogoversary and i won this awesome cd - it has some of my most favorite songs on it!! [how did you know?!]

meeting these ladies has been great - and i can't imagine not being friends with them now :)

have you become IRL friends with people you met through blogs or message boards? does your family think you're crazy for doing so?!!

bubbles

on my skin -- no literally. i wish i had a picture to show you.* ya really. on my arms, and my stomach and my legs now - they don't itch or anything - it's just wierd and i finally decided after the fourth day to go to the doctor and see if they knew why i had fluid filled bubbles only on the front part of only certain parts of my body.

so - i really hate being on this side of the door - you know, the patient side. like really hate it. i get all chatty and talk fast and sound unintelligent. but it came up that a) i am not on birth control anymore [it had been awhile... and my regular dr. was on vacation,so i had to see the NP] and b) we are TTC. and somewhere in the midst of the whole visit the lady thinks my rash could be pregnancy related, "b/c you get lots of strange things when you are pregnant" - i reassured that i was definatly not pregnant - but she had to "be sure". i am still not pregnant. DUH!

after she gives me a line of BS about the bubbles - stay out of the sun and use some cream - ya oook. [i tried that already, and i told her that] she goes on to say - "you really should probably not worry about having a baby you know. you are busy and you will probably just get pregnant when you aren't so stressed out and relaxed." i just gave her a wierd half smile. then the NPstudent that was with said "ya, you know, everyone seems to get pregnant when they least expect it" I just said "well, you know, my life is always going to be a little stressful" and left.

It was an ambush!! and i feel no better about the bubbles.... I wish i could have seen my real doctor today, doctor's don't need vacations... ;)

*i can't seem to get a good one, it's not like i haven't tried!

Rollin....

with my homies.
or with the punches.
you pick......

today - i pick punches. I feel like I have been a really great "roller" lately - a lot of crazy things have been going on emotionally, life wise, career and family wise this past 5 or 6 weeks and I have tried my best to deal with it and just kind of roll with the punches as they say. [really, again with these *they* ppl, i'm gonna have to meet *them* someday!] But I am feeling very.... stretched to the limit lately - I'm trying my best not to feel that way - but we all know it's nearly impossible to 'not' feel something.
What is going on you ask - well just a little smattering for you
~the TTC progress = slooowww. while (almost) everyone that I know IRL who has ever TTC has concieved in oh, a month? no, seriously. everyone except my mom - promising for me? its looking like not? is it fun to see what may be described as unfit parents walking around with many children treating them poorly while my husband and I have yet to concieve one that will be treated wonderfuly? nope. and those friends with kids i have...most of them are onto their 2nd or 3rd pregnancy right now - i could never be less than happy for someone who was expecting, but it doesn't me i'm not a little bit frustrated that it isn't us. is it fair we have done things in the "appropriate" order* but again, this one thing has yet to fall into place? probably not - but we have lots of hope that one day it will - we're not jaded.yet. i often feel a little out of place talking about it, b/c we aren't "infertile" or doing any treatments - we are just "slow" i guess - but i have 1 IRL who really understands - and then theres the blogosphere. so, blogosphere thanks for listening to me!
~career = clearly this big test. 2 weeks from today guys. am i ready? 1/2 way - but that's ok right since i am only 1/2 way there!?! oh i just want my life back.... it is so NOT fun to study all fucking day long and still feel like you have more left to do - but only b/c you have like 23497 things left to cram into your head! And... in less than a month I will be in the hospital working, with patients like a real almost doctor! i am pretty excited about that idea.... and equally nervous scared - but not thinking about it until 2 weeks from tomorrow! it just leaves a lot of paperwork for me to do in about 2 days!
~family = changing. why? well, my mama is getting married in a few months! yay! i love her fiance like he was my own dad. it's so awesome and they are so happy. on a less enthusiastic note - some "astranged" family member of mine would like to become more involved in my life and I can't decide how I feel about it. and I am not ready to decide right now. (at least not in the next 2 weeks.) I am a big person for 2nd chances - but this time, I am not so sure, it's a very different and difficult situation that would take days to explain. it just keeps me thinking - when i really need to focus on other things.

so, that is a very, very small tidbit of what runs through my mind almost daily when i am not filling it with medical things. needless to say i am one of THE most abscent minded people i know right now - so i am sorry if i haven't called or written or if i have forgotten your name (i forget mine sometimes too) but i hope i am back to normal in a few weeks! thanks for hanging with me.

*please note that i am not saying anything bad about single mothers - my best friend is a single mom, and the best one i know. life happens, and when you can make the most out of something you weren't (or were!) expecting - that's when you come out on top

teaser tuesday

so as I was browsing baby-amore's blog I saw she did this really cool meme and I wanted to do it too (follower and all...)

so here it is:

you can do it too:

1. go to Flikr and search each of the answers to the questions below

2. use only the first page of results and pick an image

3. enter the url for that image into Big Huge Lab's Mosaic Maker* - then put that onto your blog like I did so everyone can see! It's super easy :)

Now for the questions:

1. What is your first name?

2. What is your favorite food? right now?

3. What high school did you go to?

4. What is your favorite color?

5. Who is your celebrity crush?

6. What is your favourite drink?

7. What is your dream vacation?

8. What is your favourite dessert?

9. What do you want to be when you grow up?

10. What do you love most in life?

11. What is one word that describes you?

12. What is your flickr name?

[i edited some of these to make them work for me, do what you want to make it work for you!]

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As a little added bonus today - I wanted to share this with you:

What is this box of goodies you ask? It is a box that we sent to our good friend who is serving overseas right now & doing lots of wonderful things to help our country. We had to send him a little love from the US before he gets to come home on leave next month. I just wanted to send out some appreciation to all the men and women and their SO's & families/friends who are standing by their sides during this time! WE APPRECIATE YOU!

*don't be scared.. it's really easy, user friendly and really really cool!

tell me why

Why do you blog?

This is what someone asked me the other day - so I figured I would answer - on my blog of course!

I do it for me. It's mostly just to 'get it all out' when I am having a bad day or a great day, I usually don't have anything to say if I am just an 'ok' day. To share my experiences in life, whether that be in TTC, this whole MD buisness, my marriage, family issues, random happenings - chances are someone else in the blogosphere has experienced soemthing similar, and my future self will want to remember this all one day.
I have always been better with the written word, and especially if I am feeling 'moved' by something, I usually have something to say about it, so here it is - somebody else might as well enjoy it.
Something else I really don't like doing - is talking on the phone - so this way all of my loves can just log on and read about my crazy life rather calling me! Makes perfect sense to me.
Most of all though - it's just like why anyone else writes, it's an outlet - like free therapy - it makes me feel better when I am feeling crappy, i smile when people leave comments, i really enjoy putting my thoughts on the page even if noone reads them (but i am glad people do!).

So - why do you do blog?