a letter to my {second} daughter

Dear baby girl -

It’s been 39 weeks (give or take) since you started your journey on the inside.  Since you started growing, changing, kicking, rolling and hiccupping.  We waited for you to start that inside journey for almost a year and in the process we learned a lot about patience, heartache, loss, and love too.  It wasn’t always easy – but we knew it would be worth it in the end.  And we were right.

As we wait for you to make your way from the inside to the outside – your dad, big sister and I talk about what it’s going to be like with you here.  What you might look like.  If you are going to have hair that Gianna can put bows in.  Where you will sleep. What car seat you will ride in. How much we are going to love you.

If I had to guess, just based on the way you move on the inside, I would say that you are going to be following in your big sister’s adorable, highly energetic footsteps. I got to see a picture of you a few weeks ago and you look like you are going to have some awesome, pinch able cheeks and an itty bitty nose.  I would venture to guess you will have lots of hair and blue eyes.  I imagine you are going to like it when you have your back rubbed or your butt patted – you are always sticking your backside out!  You are quite an energetic inside baby – I almost get nervous when I don’t feel you all the time – but you need to rest too!  In fact, right now you are wiggling all around.

It has been a really busy 39 (give or take) weeks – but I think we are finally prepared for you.  Your room is finally ready for you to sleep in.  The swing is ready in the living room, right next to Gianna’s big bounce horse.  Your car seat is all set up to keep you safe.  There are a LOT of really cute clothes, shoes & bows waiting for you to make them even cuter.

Your sister talks to you every day – she hugs & kisses my belly too.  It is probably going to be a little tricky, and maybe a little tough on her, when you first come out – but just know that she loves you so so much, she just needs to get used to you being here.  Your daddy talks to you all the time, he is really ready for you to come out so he can snuggle you up. Your aunts, uncles, grandma, papa and so many other people are anxiously waiting for you to arrive too. And me? Well I get to spend all my time with you – loving you, talking to you, feeling you dance around and keeping you as safe as possible.  I tell you all about my day, our plans, our lives, how fun it is to play with your sister and what a great place Target is – all of the important life lessons!

I just really can’t wait to see who you are – who you grow into.  How much you and Gianna are alike, or different.  What it is like to be a mom to sisters, and not just a sister myself. I can’t believe we are so close to meeting you, after all this time, all this waiting, hoping, and praying.

But most of all and more than anything else – we are all so ready to love you from the outside, our newest tiny dancer.

love you so much -

Mommy