it rained today.
on me.
that sucked.
my husband and i had an absolutly fabulous evening yesterday *wink wink*
and a pretty good one today so far (minus the winks).
i had a long talk with my mom this weekend about my plans for the year - she is less than happy about my decisions and is less than quiet about her feelings. I finally just told her how i felt, why i am doing this, and just hope that she understands a little bit more, even though I am fairly confident that she doesn't. Most people are very supportive, not to say she isn't, she is just trying to push me into something that i "have always wanted" [maybe or likely not]. She understands my point on some things, just not everything. It can get very frustrating when your own mother, who's opinion you value incredibly, doesn't want you to have the things in life you want at this moment --- baby, job, new career, regular life! I fully expect a not-so-anonyomous* comment from her over this too, but it's ok - even if we don't agree how i should spend my life, i love her anyway.
speaking of baby --- or rather TTC --- i guess this would be our TWW? i can't tell you i feel anything, i would be lying. mike made a comment about my boobs looking larger today - but w/e! i think my dear old friend is supposed to be here this weekend-ish, we will see her when she gets here i guess. It has been nice being so focused on everything else that I haven't thought much about what the old body is doing --- and i am sure i would have come up with a crazy made up twinge here or there to bitch about. the only good thing is, after almost NINE months of TTC (seems long to me) it's not getting old yet.... that seems good to me!
*speaking of anonymous comments, i keep getting them from someone out there and i don't know who you are... it's killing me! but i won't make you tell me who you are if you don't want too...yet!
I don't think I've ever had an anon comment on my blog. Now that I think of it, I think I have my options set that people have to at least give an email address. I need to know who to spam if they drop nonsense or drama on my blog. Just kidding. :)
ReplyDeleteI more than anyone have witnessed how long you have wanted your dream - "Dr. Drea" and how hard you have worked towards it. You have the talent, I just don't want you to loose your confidence and give up forever. I understand you need a break. The world needs a caring, compasionate dr like you. Your face would glow when you would share you experiences. If you could get past the test --- you would be an awesome doctor! You have always had the passion. Just remember .... you can fool some of the people, some of the time, but you can't fool mom! I love you!
ReplyDeleteP.S. your sisters feel the same way! We've supported you from the beginning and will be there until the end.
I am sorry your mother was not very supportive. I hope she will get over this in time. I hope some if her reaction is just shock at the major life changes you have made right now.
ReplyDeleteYou need to do what makes you happy, no matter what it is. I think you made a good decision. Medicine takes up too big a part of your life. It is not the sort of thing you should go into half-heartedly.
Follow your bliss!
never an anonymous comment here either.
ReplyDeletehope your 2ww turns into a 40ww:)